Friday, December 03, 2004


Early Bird.
5:15 AM- I hear a knock on my door and try to open my poorly rested eyes. “Time for school again...” I say to myself. For 5 days every week, for weeks, months and years, I’ve gone through this routine. After around 5-8 hours of sleep, I’d wake up and soon after that I’d head straight to the bathroom and wash myself up. While soaping my body, certain thoughts flash through my mind. How will I finish my Filipino homework? Should I condition my hair after this? I should have slept earlier last night...I shouldn’t have gone online...I should have studied for our Math quiz. All these things enter my mind and they all get jumbled inside. While showering I think to myself “Why do I even bother to wake up so early in the morning?” At times I ponder on how unfair it is for me to lack a few hours of sleep because I live so far away from my school. Other students wake up 30 minutes before we start classes because they only walk their way to Gate 1. They sleep an average of 8 hours a day, while I on the other hand, stay up late almost everyday and get eye bags every school day. I study for hours, memorizing, calculating, solving and reading notes and textbooks, while other students have fun playing their chosen sports. They get to stay in school until around 7:00 pm, mingle with their peers, while I force my brothers to study and force myself as well to get going and stop slacking off my time. The fact that all these responsibilities (or should I say burdens) are put on my shoulders make my life a whole lot more difficult. A typical growing teenager like me should have enough rest and sleep. I left my brain at home sleeping, so how could I even focus in class? Not only that, but as soon as you get to school, more yoke is put on to your shoulders. Chemistry, history, algebra, GEM, volleyball, calligraphy. All of these flood your mind thus making yourself even more stressed.
Around 4:00pm, you head straight to your school bus and head back home. As soon as you reach your bedroom, you immediately lie down your bed and then close your weary eyes. Your body’s aching, your mind’s all worn out and your eyes are still swelling. You think to yourself “If only I could have slept an hour longer, things could have been a lot more different....”

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