Thursday, November 30, 2006


Undecided
Maybe its just because of my aching body that Im feeling down...literally. But when youre already physically exhausted, the rest seems to follow.

But its still best to hold back.

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Wednesday, November 29, 2006


Today I found out that...
my crush-crushan is gay.

And get this...
my former crush-crushan...was his ex.

GREAT.

Guess Ill really end up in a convent or with another girl.
Guys find the latter hotter though.

Hmmm...

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Tuesday, November 28, 2006


It
Its fun to giggle every once in a while at the very sight of it.
Every petty encounter makes life more worthy of spending.
It makes me feel like a young schoolgirl again.

It is ideal.
It is dreamy.
It is perfect. Almost.

If only it were mine...

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Monday, November 27, 2006


What's not to love?

Staring at the star-lit sky while lying on the grass with great friends...Sharing your innermost schizophrenic-like self to the most unlikely counterpart...Recounting the silliness of the past upon catching a sight of each other again after a long time...Savoring the cold night wind enveloping your face as you cut through the air in two wheels...Resurfacing of companionship gone by...Taking on an ambitious feat calling for all your drive and energy...Pushing your body to its limits and dozing off with a sore core...Confusing yourself with thoughts of the relentless whatifs and shouldis...The fulfillment of a longtime wish and need...The realization of what should be done and what is to happen.


Need I say more?


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you never know what youre missing until you try.
tumo-torpedo.


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Monday, November 20, 2006


Brewing beneath the steam
Cheerdance practices are exhausting...but Im (hopefully) losing weight anyway, and Im actually sweating (as horridly stinky as it may sound) and mind you, that hasnt happened in a really long time. So it's all good! :) I think this is benefitting me more than I thought, since I end up focusing on my acads as soon as I get to my dorm room after the late practices. Aah...balance achieved. :P
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Mondays and Thursdays have turned into routine lunch dates with Ricoy and Alexis, and dance sessions with Chrissie. Tuesdays and Fridays have kept me struggling with 3 subjects in the afternoon (with no breaks, ugh), but at least I have Basti and (who else but) Chrissie to accompany with the information overload. Aside from losing my everdearest phone and running out of precious-tummy-filling allowance, the second sem's been...okay. Refreshingly okay. :)
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I miss my ROOM - my REAL room that is. I didnt go home this weekend since we had practice, and my parents are still out of the country, ergo, no transpo. I miss my parents! :( Even though it costs me P10 (I think) per text, I cant help but send mushy daughter-ly messages to them. Ive always complained about how my parents never showed "affection" towards me, but it was only later that I realized that I myself should take the initiative in giving "thank yous" and "love yous", hugs and kisses, and all that cheezy stuff. And to my surprise, my actions were reciprocated more and more as I grew older. Parents are sometimes hard to crack, but we offsprings should know that the simplest texts and most solemn nightly prayers instantly melt their hearts - the same way they do us. :)
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People have always wondered why Ive remained single since birth. It is a status that was made by choice, and things will come as soon as their ready to drop out of the fragile box. Sooner or later, it will come. :)
***
Ang gulo na ng multiply. BOO!
Oh, and instead of joining JMA, I might join AdCore this sem instead. And AuxCorps. Then apply for an OC VP position for AIESEC. Ohyeah. Haha. O:
***
Im so hungry that I could eat this guy(beside me)'s sandwich. Haha!
Gotta go! :)
Yellow. Orange. And blue. ;)

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Thursday, November 16, 2006


bumabangag
Fuuuuudge. I didnt sleep tonight and yet I didnt do anything the whole day.
Very very very poor time management skills, Dominique. Tsk tsk.

I have to attend 2 dance practices today - sleepless.
Thats what I call a zombie...zombie...zombeh-heh-heh.

BANGAG MODE ON.

Im going back to Katips in a few hours. :)

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Wednesday, November 15, 2006


Were they talking about me?
Another text from Danielle -

Symptoms of ZERO LOVELIFE:

1. Mahilig kumain

2. Sanay sa outings

3. Tulog ng tulog

4. TV/Computer addict

5. Daydreaming lagi

6. Tumataba

Are you one of us?
Hahahahaha! Aylavit. :)

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Sunday, November 12, 2006


the week that was...
Having had experienced the agony (not to mention the calluses and aching muscles) that manual enlistment in UP brought from the 6th to the 9th is no joke. If people there are so smart, why cant they come up with a more effective and FASTER (must I stress on this even more) enrollment? Should the Iskolars ng Bayan suffer lining up for hours only to find out that their IDs will be raffled to get into leftover slots? I say, this measly process must cease to exist.

My schedule's almost the same as last sem's, except now Ive got PE to worry about.

9-10 am daily for Math 100 - My prof, Sir Harris, is hilarious. He's one of them im-still-young-and-brainy types, and he has no problem laughing around with us. First question he threw me was "Kung ikaw ay gamit sa banyo, ano ka?" I answered, "toilet paper, so that I could clean up after people's acts." But he misheard me and thought that I said "people's ASS." So he asked me again, "Sigurado ka ba? Para kanino mo gagawin yun?" I replied, "Para sa kanila lahat *points to class* sir, kasi classmates kami lahat." Everyone kept on giggling since my prof still thought I said "ass" - I know, coz he even asked me after I went back to my seat, "fetish mo ba yun, asses?" Haha. Iloveit.
And Im vowing to get an Uno for this subject too. Bleh.

10-1130 MTh for Geog1 - Im classmates with Dan Salvador, Tanya, Kathleen and a few other familiar faces for this class. At first I thought we were getting Yany Lopez, who I heard was nice and generous with unos, but a young female prof showed up. Her name's Ms. Pamela Crosby. Im sure she's nice too, but Im worried she might be too boring that Id end up yawning in our airconditioned room.

1-230 MTh for Eng10 - Im taking this with Chrissie and Adrian, and if my eyes havent failed me yet, I think Sam de Asis is in my class too. Havent met the prof yet either, but Adrian said we landed the tamad-but-okay prof who didnt assign too many papers *jumps for joy*. Belat na lang dahil di kami de Ocampo - di na kami Ri-ricoy. Haha.

1130-1 TF for Soc Sc1 - Basti, Chrissie, and I were the last ones who got to enlist for this class. I LOVE OUR PROF. He's so active and funny! For an elderly professor with matching thinning hair (it sounds mean, but its stressing on his maturity here), I think Im getting a taste of the UP experience with him. This seemingly ultra-intelligent and reasonable teacher who manages to contract "Do you understand?" and "Naiintindihan nyo?" to just three syllables appealed to me on our first meeting - hope it lasts till the end of the sem (all the way to my desired GE uno!) haha!

1-230 TF for Kas1 - My prof didnt show. Tapos hiwalay pako sa class nina Chrissie at Mikki. Boo.

Tentative 4-5 MTh for PE (Streetdance) - I have to prerog for this tomorrow. Henry and Rachel are gonna be in the same class, and its STREETDANCE, so Im looking forward to it.

Enough of my schedule. I just had a sudden flashback of the week that had drained my wallet form all its contents and filled my stomach and arms with even more unneccesary fats. Hahaha!
Im nearing bankruptcy, and thats bad since Christmas is just a few weeks away.

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Wednesday - Went to Gateway with Henry and Alexis to watch The Covenant oozingly hot Steven Strait <3!> Ate at Taco Bell and indulged in a banana split after. Oh happiness! :)

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Friday - Since our Kas profs were nowhere in sight, Mikki and Mik dragged Chrissie and I along to Makati. Passed by Greenbelt and eventually made our way to Dads in G4. And again, we fattened ourselves with their Meryenda buffet until we couldnt stand up and walk right anymore. Oh, Mik, Chri, and I passed by The Face Shop's makeover set-up and had our faces "cleaned" too! Haha! Chrissie and I ended up commuting back to Quezon City, and my gahd, riding the MRT during the rush hour was choking but we survived it anyway. Wooh! :)

Saturday - AIESEC Membership Selection Interview. I didnt "study" anything, so technically, wala akong alam. Good thing majority of the interviews were subjective. Eva and Marlowe *grins* for the EBs, Azlan for the trainee, and Amy of UA&P for the MC. It went pretty well considering I knew nothing about the non-trivial facts of AIESEC, but at least I was able to answer the questions. Yay! And Azlan even complimented me and told me that I was very well-spoken (ME?!) and that it was a very good interview (or did he say that to everyone else?) Haha. Im thinking of applying for the OC positions...but then, thats just me thinking. :P

***
Went to Festi earlier to look for laptops. My Dad's leaving for Singapore on Monday, and hopefully, by the time both my parents are back, they'd have a new baby with them. A shiny, smart, and effective electronic baby that is :D

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And for the tragedy of the week: MY PHONE WAS STOLEN LAST THURSDAY.
Ricoy and I were in an Ikot jeep on our way to the gym then. I was sure I put my phone inside my bag right after I sat down - Ricoy even saw me put it in. After a while, I got my wallet out of my bag to get coins and pay the driver, and then I heard the *Beep!* from my phone indicating that I got a message, since I was texting Henry then (for my PE). And so, I tried to feel for my phone and frantically searched my bag for my dear 6600 and its fluffy purple thingy. But I couldnt find it! I immediately asked Ricoy to call my phone so I can hear it ring, but I didnt hear anything! Before we got down the jeepney, Ricoy even checked my seat to see if it fell or whatever, but it wasnt there either. :( BOO YOU - whoever you are who stole my phone, sana makarma ka! >:) Hahaha.

I will miss you N6600 and all the memories weve had together. :(

But Im surprised by how Im not TOO bothered by it though. Probably a result of my detachment to it during the sem breek. Tee hee. Somehow, my materialistic instincts are not kicking in. And even though Ive been demoted to having my brother's old phone (N1100?) for the meantime, Im not complaining. :)

Erase my globe number people. As of now, Im using my old Smart sim (0919457****).
Ill buy another globe sim tomorrow. Haha.

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Weh, antok na ko. Its only 12:50 (ohyess, new sleeping time).
I cant believe I actually studied in advance for Math and Geog. Am I a nerd or what? Hahaha.

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Friday, November 10, 2006


On the first day of my second semester...
my phone got effing stolen. :(

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Sunday, November 05, 2006


Of sarcastic frustrations and some
My Mom's leaving for Singapore tomorrow.
My Dad's gonna follow next week, then theyll go to Malaysia too after.

They're both leaving without us again. Phooey. (They still owe me that European trip - hah! asa pa)

If there's one thing Im definitely not, its well-travelled (is there such a word?). I consider Boracay as the summit of my not-so-distant world, and thats nothing compared to where my parents have been. *frowns* I know I have no right to complain though. Long travels do spell big bucks (money which I have yet to earn myself), so I guess Id have to live with my dragging frustration.

Someone take me to Peru's Machu Picchu (& to Oprah's doorstep)!!!
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(My knees wobble in high places, but ever since I saw a photo of this ancient city, Ive been constantly drawn to it. Hmm..I must have been an Inca in my past life. Cool.)

I know typical choices for i-want-to-get-there-someday places would be sunny beaches and artsy fartsy or techie cities. But as much as Id love to go on fancy vacations there too, I have this thing for historically-rich and nature-driven countries like Spain (and France and Italy and Greece...okay, so maybe those are given), Africa, Mexico, Russia, Saudi Arabia, etc.

If only I had flying powers... tra la la.


If I were to wed, it should be to a big shot (moreno/chinito) tycoon who owns his own supersonic aircraft...

okay fine, so that means Im never getting married. :|

***
My confidence is at an all-time low. My first ever college sembreak has turned me into a fuglified kolehiyala. To think I had every reason to "improve" myself with those weeks of practically NOTHING. Guess all these distractions (read: Grey's Anatomy re-runs, multiply-stalking, imported DVDs, nearly-unlimited supply of Chocnut) served their purpose well. My ultra-divided attention to the unimportant things have prevented my concentration on the other more important things.

This derangement must stop. Or else, Id be twice my normal weight in two months.
With volcanoes growing out of my face. Eew.

***
I WANT TO GO BACK TO SCHOOL. I mean, err, college.
but please, not this weeeeeeeeeek! so bad timing!

And why must you appear now, right when he's there?!
Bleh.
***
I think Ive succeeded in achieving what others thought was impossible - Ive detached myself from my phone. Yes, mother dear, I no longer hold my (very much abused) N6600 day and night. The echoing "You have a message!" is no longer heard inside the shower. And no, those nights of vibration (oh, ang utak) and beeps are long gone.

It must be Smart taking its revenge on me.
Since Ive become "one of them" I lost my "appetite" for my daily doses of goodnight messages, kilig texts and the likes. On the other hand, Ive rekindled friendships (yes, globe people) and formed new ones - truly, great things were made possible. (Nyeh, Nikki)

***
I got my non-pro already.
Here's a fun fact: I got my license on the very same date (last year of course) I got my student's permit.
It says on the license that Im from "CARMONA, CAVITE"
Hahahaha. FIXED beybeh :P

***
Im still gravely sulking over that almost-US standingwhatever. 1.485. Rarr. *malamig na hangin*o:
Nat Sci2 is undeserving of my hatred.
I swear, career mode na to! Haha.


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Saturday, November 04, 2006


were like fire & ice - hot & cool :P
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Friday, November 03, 2006


GC
1st Semester (17 units)

Math 17 - 1.75
Eng 1 - 1.25
Philo 1- 1.25
Soc Sci 2- 1.25
Nat Sci 2 - 1.75
PE - 1.00

GWA: 1.485

(Now, allow me to rant...)
That makes me a College Scholar then (thats if I computed for my GWA correctly)?
BLEH. To be a Univ Scholar a GWA of 1.45 is required. DAMMIT. So close yet so far! O:
Nat Sci 2 kasi eh. Di na nga ako magcucut. And I shall limit the uncalled for trips to SM/Gateway and unsought tambay hours. :| Hahahaha.

Okay, I must remember next sem that MATH 100 (Intro to Calculus) = 5 units. And that my math class isnt for studying for my other classes. o:
Must. nerdify. myself. :)

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first on my christmas wishlist
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"Oh, crystal ball, crystal ball
Save us all, tell me life is beautiful
Mirror, mirror on the wall

Who is the man I see
Where Im supposed to be
I lost my heart
Under the iron sea"

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I LOVE KEANE.
It doesnt surprise me why their keyboard-dominated music and poetic lyrics appeal to me so much. Soft-rock is perfect for the "emo but nots" for it captivates ones fancy for melodramatic tunes. Ive loved them since "Somewhere Only We Know" and up until "Atlantic" came, Id still have myself drift off to dreamland while lullabied by their music.

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"And why'd you say
Its just another day, nothing in my way
I dont wanna go, I dont wanna stay
So there's nothing left to say?"

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Seeing Through
I know Ive seen her before.

A first glance may deceive one for her bashful and reluctant ways, but eventually, this deception is outgrown by depth and intricacy. The smile that never failed to radiate her keen ambition fell upon the immediate recognition of others. To the many with whom she had crossed paths with, she was close to being ideal. But to the few who knew her very well, she had been diagnosed with incurable drama.

Time escaped her without nothing more than a lapse of age. Compared to her past, she was less the optimist, and more the doubting Thomas. The smile had been stiffly moulded to her face but it instantly disappeared from sight when no one was looking. Her ignorance of the many doors that opened as she passed by them ramified into fickleness and restlessness. She developed intolerance of anything that thwarted and hindered her from finding a way out. But little did she know that it was she who refused to pay attention to her liberty.

One familiar to even the best of us, her first step to recovery was owning up to her fear. It was from that very same fear that her acuteness to insensitivity arose. She had always known she was worth more, but she never knew exactly what she was worth. She grew tired of the tedious cycle she had thrown herself into. Tired of the hesitations, exhausted by the complications, and irked by the monotony, she had had enough.

Until now, she continues to wring every once of goodness that pervades her reality.
I still see her - still with that smile and the incurable drama immortalized by her soul - only, stronger.

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Thursday, November 02, 2006


World's Best Universities
World's best
By Michael Tan
Inquirer

Global ranks

Let's look first at the THES-QS list of 20 leading universities. Note that there are ties so there might be occasional skipping of numbers: Harvard (1st), Cambridge (2nd), Oxford (3rd), Massachusetts Institute of Technology and Yale (tying for 4th), Stanford (6th), California Institute of Technology (7th), University of California in Berkeley (8th), Imperial College London (9th), Princeton (10th), University of Chicago (11th), Columbia (12th), Duke (13th), Beijing University (14th), Cornell (15th), Australian National University (16th), London School of Economics (17th), Ecole Normale Superieure (18th), National University of Singapore and Tokyo University (tying for 19th).

Most of the universities are American and British, but there is also representation from Australia, France, China, Singapore and Japan. Most of the leading American universities are private; in fact, on that top 20 list, the University of California Berkeley is the only American public institution. When I went on to the top 500 universities, I found that in
all countries of the world, with the glaring exception of the United States and one other country (which I'll name later but which you may have guessed), state universities lead in the rankings.

Asia's best

I decided to pull out the Asian (to include Australian) universities from the THES-QS list and found that among the world's 500 leading universities, 90 are from Asia. Japan leads with 28, followed by China (including Hong Kong) with 16, Taiwan with 8, South Korea and Thailand with 7 each, Malaysia, Indonesia and the Philippines with 4 each, Australia with 3, Singapore with 2 and Bangladesh with one.

Do be careful with those figures since it's not just a numbers game. Australia and Singapore have few universities on the list, but they are all high up in the ranking.

Enough with the suspense. Let's look at how the Philippines did. The University of the Philippines (UP) came in 299th globally and 47th among Asian universities. I have to say that's not too bad, considering how UP has had to plod along with shrinking budgets and with the flight of so many good professors. Trailing behind UP were three private universities: De La Salle (392nd), Ateneo de Manila (484th) and, talk about a photo finish, the University of Santo Tomas at 500th.

UP is still among the world's best, but if we worked harder on the entire educational system, we should have more reason to be proud. Ultimately, we should be able to look at these university rankings as indicators of our current development strategies, as well as predictors of the country's future.

UP Pride, baby! ;)

Read the whole Inquirer article by Michael Tan here:
http://opinion.inq7.net/inquireropinion/columns/view_article.php?article_id=28506
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runs in the blood
DREAMS ARE ILLUSIONS...
LIFE IS A LIE...
WHEN YOU LIE TO YOURSELF...

When the sun sets on my day it always leaves me as if fearing to be with me. Now, i'm left to bask in the darkness which has its claws in my throat. Thos same hands have forced me to rise once again. After all that has happened i had lost all hope of my light, all possible thoughts and feelings towards the light were now the property of this darkness that had embraced me. The hoped that the light would stay away from me now. I was now one with the darkness, i would only weaken it again. Such light was a gift to the world, and i was the reason it weakened. I couldn't stand the thought of making it go through that again. I was now crying, tears that waited for so long to fall on my cold heart now fell on it burning it with its intense feelings. All that i asked the darkness was that it stay away from the light. It agreed but in the process i had to stay away as well. I hadn't expected that but it was important to me that the light was never to weaken because of me. I stood there in my lifeless state, whose tears were burning his heart and with the sun leaving him with the darkness at the end of each day...

-frozen heartbeat

I didnt write that.
The whole thing's from my brother's blog.
"Frozenheart" is what he calls it. :\

Guess whatever this is - its in our veins. Haha!

***
I seriously cannot spend the rest of my life doing nothing. The utter boredom is so numbing that its starting to hurt.

And Im fuglier than ever.
Great.

Looks like all this jiving matches the day of the dead.
How amusing.

"When you wish upon a star, nothing happens..."

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