Wednesday, March 30, 2005


3 personalities

The men in this world can be classified into three...
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Here I Wait
Here I Wait
03.29.05

Here I lie again
On the bed of dreams
The desolate cradle of my core
I wait for your call

Here I bask again
On the crib of fears
The taut embrace I once felt
I wait for your plea

Here I sprawl again
On the cot of delusion
The words you spoke cut through me
I wait for your defense

Here I linger again
On the bunk of doubt
The grace of your stare so well-hidden
I wait for your declaration of guilt

Here I rest again
On the cushion of tears
The spiteful strangling of my essence
I wait for your feeble excuse

Here I wait again
On the floor of cowardice
The weakness I wrangle with
I wait for you…still
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Tuesday, March 29, 2005


birthday laughs
i know my birthday is way over, but kwentos are still fun to share...

@gateway mall
[misUNDERstood.hehe.baduy.=P]

ale: "anak, eto na lang oh..."
*anak with weird look*
ale: "o, ano gusto mo 'to?"
*anak stares at nanay*
ale: "ano ba? gusto mo o hinde?!"
daughter(anak): "ma naman eh..."
"brief yan!"
*i couldnt stop giggling during this part*
*ale examines underwear*
ale: "ha? brief ba 'to? hindi 'to brief!"
daughter: "ma...babae ako. babae ka din. dapat alam mo yan..."
*sales lady enters the scene*
lady: "ano po yun ma'am?"
ale: "miss, sabihin mo nga dito sa anak ko na pambabae ito..." (shows off the undies)
*puzzled look on sales lady's face*
lady: "umm..ma'am...brief po yan.."
daughter: "ahahah! sabi sayo mama eh!"

LOL.

@market! market!

[feel na feel]

a group of waiters...and a waitress...occupied the table opposite ours. this guy with the biggest nose ive ever seen was cracking jokes in some other language, i think it was cebuano. well anyway, they were all laughing and all...when i noticed a waiter and a waitress, whom i suspected were a couple, situated on the table close to us. I overheard their conversation, and it went something like this:

guy (pinches nose of girl. pa-sweet effect): kan-ta tayu!
girl: sige sige. (remember: they had this cebuano/bicolano accent)

*ahem*ahem*

guy ("singing"): "iiiill beeeeeeeh yuurrh kraayeen schouuuulurrr...iiil beeeh..(hesitates..then mumbles) yurrh LAAPSSSUSAAAY..."
*girl laughs*
girl: "hin-dee kaya! mas ma-ganda yung.."
*girl looks down*
girl ("singing"): "oooowwwoowowowow...wahg na wahg mong sasabehen..." (notice the H in "wag")

that was the longest "owowowowowow" ive ever heard.
she's a disgrace to kitchie's music.

LOL.

im so mean, i know. =D
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Monday, March 28, 2005


my CIRCLE of friends


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My CIRCLE of friends! ahehe.
This pic was taken back when we were still in grade 7.

Okay. See the girl in white sa may lower left? That's me! Lol.

Then next to me is JOANNA MARIE BRACEROS PLETA. She was our grade school valedictorian. She is my friend. And she is celebrating her birthday today!!! Cool noh? Magkasunod kami ng birthday! Hehe.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOOOOW! Miss ya! You take care there in..uh, are you still in Finland? Haha. <3 ya!Ü

To Jo's right is Debbie Basilan. I suuuper miss this girl! She's in Mindoro now. We havent talked in ages! Naka-ilang boyfriend na kaya 'tong si Debbie? Haha. Hope I can see her again..and catch up on things.

Up next is...Celine!! She's studies in Phil. Scie...where I was supposed to study too. Naalala ko tuloy nung naiiyak pako kasi pinoproblema namin yung pagpunta namin sa Pisay. Hehe. I've shared a lot of memories with this girl. She's one best friend I'll never regret having. She never fails to make people laugh. That's why Im really missing her now too (kahit ka-chat ko sya ngayon...hehe).

Next to Ces, is Marge. Most of the time, she's our transpo/house provider whenever the kada needs em. Haha. She's the very first person I met in Zobel, and it's great to know that until now we're still good friends. Lagi pa magkasunod class numbers namin, and we used to even write letters to each other! hehe. The usual cute-sie cute stuff that most friends do.

The girl at the top is Mariel (di ko nakilala at first, hirap tumingin ng baliktad..hehe). She's been my kabarkada since grade 5 too. We used to be part of "Celinikkigelena" (Celine-Nikki-Angge-ELENA) haha. She's the source of our kada's Chi-Chis and kwentos. She's also my circlemate, a cheerdancer and is now part of the SRCC. And this girl definitely has the potential of being the next UAAP court side reporter (is that what you call them? lol. whatever). She's definitely gonna go places.

Next is Julie. She's the kada's source for beauty tips (together with Danielle), diet knowledge, and nutrition facts. Together with Abet, they make up the tandem who knows the meaning of fun...and wit.(?) I look forward to the next SI retreat, coz there...I hope to bond more with this girl. ;)

Last but not the least, is Abet. I still see her in school and in Gate 5, but since we're not classmates anymore, Im missing her more. And mind you, she is now SRCC's President, so she's one friend Im definitely proud of.

Other kabarkadas not in the pic:

Chrissie. Mike's guuurl. <3 The athlete! Volleyballer?;)  Smart. Ganda ng hair! Kamukha ni "Ate". Haha. Akala mo tahimik...pero di naman talaga! deeeh. Lol.  

Danielle. The fashion guru. My fellow "loser" (no transpo...goes home early/doesnt go to parties). Boy-hunter? Haha. Candy girl! The "fire". And...my twin? Haha. A new batchmate of ours came up to us once and asked, "Are you twins?" Lol. 

Jana. The Genius. Inhuman...coz she has an average of 98 in her card. Always there.  This girl always has a smile on her face...that's why *toot!* fell for her. She's taken now...but they refuse to admit it. Haha. =P

Well there you go. That's my barkada. Super summarized lahat yan, haha. Even though people mistake us for not being a barkada...well, we know we have to work on things...but hey, these girls are still my friends.



There may be a lot of other crazy, pretty, funny, sweet, smart, amazing, lovable, cute girls out there...but I think I've got the best right here. ;)

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PS - may nami-miss din pala akong isa pa...si ANJO!!! haha. (there you go anjo..lol). sya nagpasimuno ng mga klepto sa class (pareho sila ni Ces) He's hard to miss too..coz he's still always there. By that, I mean that he never fails to check up on us! lalo na sa YM! hehe. Miss ya anjo! ;)
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Saturday, March 26, 2005


My Last Day of Being 16
Being 16 has been the greatest! (Is that gramatically correct? Lol)

Even though I still have a lot of uncertainties (like the correctness of my previous sentence), the past year would definitely have to be one of the most colorful (and not to mention, craziest) chapters in my life. I know it's cliche, but being sixteen was truly...sweet.Ü I've always thought that being a teenager meant having to deal with immature boys, choice of clothes and make-up, terror teachers, Physics & Trigonometry, fights with your 'rents, and the likes. Well, I was right, wasn't I? But it wasn't just all about that. It meant so much more.

Omg. I sound like a woman in her late 50s reminiscing her teenage years.Ö That's scary. But maybe someday, when my face is filled with unwanted wrinkles and when my hair has turned all gray, I'll look back and realize how fragile and innocent I was back then. I've always thought of myself as someone who's been through a lot. But whenever I hear stories about other people who got pregnant at the age of 16, who got drunk and wasted at 15, who jumped off the roof at 16 and a half, I realize how innocent I am compared to these people. Not that having to do crazy things means that you're already "mature" or "experienced". It's just that, I still have a lot of nights to spend crying, days to spend laughing, and years to spend living.
Surprisingly, it saddens me to think that I'll be writing the number "7" after the "1" on the blank next to the "Age" part of my college application forms. The fact that Im turning a year older does make my knees feel all wobbly too, coz it's like an indication that I really am *gulp* old...matanda..gurang. I remember wanting to be "seventeen" back when I was still seven. I have an entry in my diary as proof of how I expected that age to be full of "bitterness, boyfriends, and bawls." I end up laughing every time I read that journal. I can't believe I used to believe all the things I see and hear on those teen-oriented sitcoms and movies. Those shows may not be 100% fictional, but they sure have a lot of truth in them. Sometimes, it makes me even want to wish that I was some character or actress in a show. I want to be like Lana Lang...or Marissa...or Hailey...or some other tv hearthrob (the thought of having a Clark Kent, a Ryan, and Nathan is quite dreamy too! hehe). Kristin Kreuk or Mischa Barton portray their characters well and they seem to efficiently squeeze out all that emotion needed for every scene. Most girls probably go through the same scenarios...too bad they don't have scripts to tell them exactly what to do or where to go.

Speaking of scripts, for my English poem (which I submitted to Sir Alfer a day after the deadline...haha) I wrote about the "woman behind the red curtain". I talked about how things in my life seemed to be part of a play, with interesting characters, not-so-bland scenes, and a normal setting. I mentioned how the story went on...how the scripts were made as the lines were being said. I wrote about how I was trying to conquer the stage and how I managed to let the audience see the character, that is me. But aside from all that, I talked about the woman behind the red curtain...my mom.

My Mom kissed me an hour ago. And that kiss would have to be the best gift I'll be receiving on my birthday(grammar check please, hehe).
You see, it's not a "normal thing" in our family to kiss...to hug...to say "I Love You" or to even say "Peace Be With You" in mass every Sunday.
I have to admit that sometimes, I envy those kids who get goodnight kisses and tight hugs before they go to sleep.
But despite this atypical setting that I am in, I am proud to say that we're a weird...yet, happy family.Ü

I was sitting quietly on the big, brown, couch while watching 7th heaven (missing Simon's character and adoring Ashlee Simpson's outfit) when my Mom sat down beside me...asked me why I tied my hair (coz she thought that I looked "prettier" with my hair up)...stared at my me for a few seconds (which Im used to...coz she does that either to examine my skin or point out an imperfection/asset)...then, out of nowhere, she kissed me on the cheeks. I just acted as if I wasn't "loving" her kiss and giggled as I said, "Mooommy..." But the truth was, during those few seconds of her PDA-ing...I felt loved.Ü I really did. And that made my day...which also made me want to live another year longer.

As I end my days of being 16 (I suck at English compositions...Im doubting my writing skills as of the moment, so pardon the grammatical errors, okie? hehe), I look back and see a Dominique (wow, I called myself by my first name, haha) full of hopes and dreams...of homeworks and fears, of kilig moments and tears (rhyming!), of friendships and laughters, of lessons and outbursts (i couldnt think of a word that would rhyme with "laughters"), of dilemmas and triumphs, and of disappointments and love.

As I draw near the world of being seventeen, I see a road ahead full of more heartbreaks, Investigative Projects, love pentagons, addictions, best friends, crushes, late-night phone conversations, cramming, advice-giving, medals, adventures, bondings, realizations, prayers, and dreams.

To all the people who have always been and have become part of my life, thank you.Ü

Goodbye, sweet sixteen.

Happy 17th Birthday to me! (in approximately 2 and a half hours) hehe. =D

God Bless everyone! Advanced Happy Easter! <3
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And They Say
Girls...In response to "What's Wrong?":
--The same old thing. = Nothing.

--Nothing. = Everything.

--Everything. = My PMS is acting up.

--Nothing, really. = It's just that you're such an _______.

--I don't want to talk about it. = Go away, I'm still building up steam.

--What makes you think there is something wrong? = I'm going to kill you.

Friends

Friend: Calls your parents by Mr. and Mrs.
Best friend: Calls your parents Dad and Mom.

Friend: Has never seen you cry.
Best friend: Has always had the best shoulder to cry on.

Friend: Never asks for anything to eat or drink.
Best friend: Opens the fridge and makes her/himself at home.

Friend: Asks you to write down your number.
Best friend: They ask you for their number (cuz they can't remember it).

Friend: Borrows your stuff for a few days then gives it back.
Best friend: Has a closet full of your stuff.

Friend: Only knows a few things about you.
Best friend: Could write a biography on your life story.

Friend: Will leave you behind if that's what the crowd is doing.
Best friend: Will always go with you.
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Girl Talk
This was how our conversation went:

"Sad Quote by Anonymous: The saddest thing in the world, is loving someone who used to love you..."
"Gaga ka talaga. San mo naman nakuha yan?"
"Wala...I just read it somewhere. Alam mo naman ako...I'm worse than you when it comes to pathetic, mushy stuff..."
"Haha. Buti na lang..."
"Buti na lang?"
"Eh kasi...most people think Im the senti-mushy-pathetic girl who's always...uh...longing for...the "L" word."
"...Doesnt everyone?"

*Thinks*

"I dunnow. I guess.."

*Gulps*

"Haaay. Di ko na ata kaya eh..."
"Ive always been the one that people turn to when they have love problems, but Id have to say that yours is one hard case to crack..."
"...Ano?"
*Pause*

"Wala..."

*Awkward Pause*

"Alam mo, naiintindihan naman kita eh. Parang pareho lang naman situation natin, diba?"
"Yun nga eh. That's why I turned to you...I was hoping to find an answer..."
"Well...you've come to the wrong person. Pareho nga tayo ng problema. Pareho din naman tayong walang solution..."

*Sigh*

"Bakit kasi nagkalalaki pa sa mundo eh!"

*Laughs*

"Men..you can't live with em...you cant live without 'em.."
"Hay nako. We should know better than to rant about these things. I mean, hello! Ang dami dami dyan eh! Ikaw nga dyan..."

"Heh! Ano ka..."

"Asus! Pa-humble ka pa..."

"Of course not..."

*Laughs*

"E bakit ikaw, parang lagi ka naman masaya? I dont hear you raving about these things..."
"Well. I talk to my close friends about it. But even they cant seem to find an answer...kaya yun, di ko na lang iniisip. Masaya naman ako eh.."
"With him or uh, with him?"
"Haha. Ewan ko. With...him."

*Laughs*

"...Ang labo natin no?"
"Onga eh...okay lang. Mga lalaki naman ganito din kalabo..."

*Pause*

"Lagi naman eh...Kaya nga ang hirap nila mahalin e..."


Note: The last line was from her, not from me.
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Friday, March 25, 2005


Things That Make You Go "Hmmmm...."
Who was the first person to look at a cow and say, "I think I'll squeeze these dangly things here, and drink whatever comes out"?

Why do toasters always have a setting that burns the toast to a horrible crisp which no decent human being would eat?

Why is there a light in the fridge and not in the freezer?

Can a hearse carrying a corpse drive in the carpool lane?

If the professor on Gilligan's Island can make a radio out of coconut, why can't he fix a hole in a boat?

Why does goofy stand erect while Pluto remains on all fours? They're both dogs.

What do you call male ballerinas?

If Wile E. Coyote had enough money to buy all that Acme stuff, why didn't he just buy dinner?

Why is a person that handles your money called a 'Broker'?

If quizzes are quizzical, what are tests?

If corn oil is made from corn, and vegetable oil is made from vegetables, then what is baby oil made from?

If electricity comes from electrons, does morality come from morons?

Is Disney World the only people trap operated by a mouse?

Why do the Alphabet song and Twinkle, Twinkle Little Star have the same tune?

Do illiterate people get the full effect of Alphabet Soup?

Did you ever notice that when you blow in a dog's face, he gets mad at you, but when you take him on a car ride, he sticks his head out the window.

Why is it that when someone tells you that there are over a billion stars in the universe, you believe them, but if they tell you there is wet paint somewhere, you have to touch it to make sure?
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Wednesday, March 23, 2005


Passage
Passage
03.23.05

To the night that seemed so distant
I fled from the racing ire
With no boundaries, no margins, no chains and wires
I was constrained to meet an end

To the stars that seemed so far
I jumped down to the gorge so deep
With no one to hang on to, I fell
I tumbled deep into the sinister dark

To the clouds that seemed so elusive
I flew to the sky so broad
With no one to catch me, I faltered
I faded off into the heavens so grand

To the deep seas that seemed so endless
I wavered to go beyond the horizon
With no sign of life, I trembled
I drowned from the overwhelming tears

To the crevice that seemed so immense
I lay within to fill the hole
With no recognizable hand to help me through
I remained trapped and in me lingered hope
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Tuesday, March 22, 2005


holy tuesday
It's Holy Tuesday, and no, Im not heading to the Church.
I dont have a rosary in my pocket either (though I have one in my wallet).
My family has no plans of visiting any orchard or altar today.

But instead, Im going to the mall in 2 hours.

Isnt it funny how some people opt to wear tube tops and mini skirts and head to the cool gimik places than spare a few minutes of their time to visit the house of God?
Isnt it funny how those bearded politicians promise us change, hope, and a new life during campaigns, yet steal the people's money once they have the power to govern our land?
Isnt it funny to see how people yawn incessantly and try to keep theyre eyes open during homilies but never fail to overcome the urge to sleep while watching those late night shows?
Isnt it funny how we were named the 2nd most corrupt country in Asia, when were supposed to be the only Christian country in this part of the world?

Its funny.
But its definitely no laughing matter.
For some people, it seems exceedingly easy for them to go on with their lives, not minding the suffering that other people are going through.
For some people, it doesnt matter if they dont go to Church, as long as they have the option to secretly make the sign of the cross once they realize that theyre stuck in a rut and theyve got nowhere to go.
For some people, life just seems too short for them to waste it. Theyre interpretation of living life to the fullest involves going to the hippest parties, getting drunk till their kidneys suffer, smoking cigars till their mouths can handle it, and hooking up with people they met a few hours beforehand.
For some people, questioning God comes to them as their last resort, once they reach a dead end and fail to understand the things going on around them.

But...
There are also those people who refuse to give in, who turn down the plea of temptation, who beckon the start of change, and accept the blows of life with their heads held high.
There are still those people who manage to spot that growing stalk amidst all the waste and rubbish.
There are still those people who continue to believe in the goodness of others and persists on dealing with these strangers without expecting anything in return.
There are still those people who have faith.
There are still those people who arent ashamed of praying and praising, despite the watchful and judgmental eyes surrounding them.
There are still those people who love.

Although these kind of people are hard to find, it is in these people that I see why God let us have free will.
It is in these people that I draw strength from.
It is in these people that I see why life is worth living.
I am glad to have loved, and been loved, by these kind of people.

Maybe, you should think about it too.

What kind of person are you?
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Saturday, March 19, 2005


Liar
What do you see?
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Yes, there's a face. And the word LIAR.
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Sleepover
Kakainggit. Ang cute nila. I want a sleepover too! Lol.
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Beh!
Ang kulit! =P


More pix from Mariel
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Magic Tricks

Want some cool magic tricks? Or are you just super bored that youd do anything I ask you to? Lol. Check this out. Its fun. It can be freaky too.

Lady Esmerald'as funny.

Magic Tricks
http://www.realmagic.net/dp/1-3.htm
http://www.realmagic.net/dp/1-5.htm
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Sleepin doggy
Look at the cute sleepin doggy! =D
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8 things in my life

There are 8 things wrong with my life now:

1. I slept at 2 am.

2. Its 8 am. And Im already awake.

3. I have been 5 feet and 2 inches tall (or hopefully 3 in) for the past 4 years.

4. My fingers and palms are red and tingly. Im allergic to something, and I dont even know what that something is.

5. As of 19Mar 08:15: I have a minimum of 0 minutes worth of local calls or 2 available SMS. I have 0 internet hours left in my prepaid internet card.

6. Im broke. (Check my wallet if you want. Youll find a single P100 bill in it, and a worn out dollar.)

7. A friends visa is ready. Things got a little (...a whole lot) weirder between us as the school year came to a close. He s going to leave sooner or later. Damn.

8. I am 16 years, 11 months, and 20 days OLD. And I repeat, OLD.

Here are the other 8 things in my life...

1. My brother passed the qualifying exams of the Muntinlupa Science High School (top 3), the Manila Science High School (top 12), and the Philippine Science High School (ranking was not given, but he probably aced that test as well). He decided to have his high school education at PhiScie (or is it Pisay?), which is supposedly the best high school in our country (sort of like the high school version of UP), and where I could have studied too with my best friend if not for a sudden twist of fate.

2. Despite his many rants and punches, his addiction to Ragnarok, his almost-afro hair, his deepening voice, his disturbing sense of style, and the annoying fact that he s already taller than me...Im still a proud ate.

3. 3 (or more) great geniuses were brought into this world by our Almighty Creator to make my life a little less frustrating: Rico Blanco, Ely Buendia. (Im listening to “With A Smile” right now, and yea, Im smiling...) and the guys of Keane.

4. Thank God for cable TV...and for the perfect epitome of a man (aka Tom Welling).

5. Even though I dont have credits, my phone still goes “Toot! Toot!” every 4 hours (estimated and rounded off). Or if it doesnt go “Toot! Toot!”, my “California” ringtone is heard once a day.

6. I have friends who are in love. I have friends who are looking for love. I have friends who can’t even mention the word. I have friends...I love.

7. We’re buying a new PC...at last! DSL is next in the list.

8. 8 days left till my 17th birthday. (As a little girl, I used to think: seventeen = have a boyfriend. But Ive proven that wrong.) 17. Thats barely legal. That makes me qualified to drive. Thats old. Thats...one more reason to make my life worth living. =)

Shout outs: Belated happy birthday Carmi! Tanda mo na! =D
Congrats to all the Seniors! (Charles and Dward! lol) We'll miss you guys! Ingat sa college!
Hi Memem! Hi Da! Hi Macky! I mean, Jana! =)

Sino pang gusto magpabati? Lol.
Make my summer, and sign at my tagboard! Tnx. =D
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Thursday, March 17, 2005


random quotes
Random Quotes

"I am amazed at radio DJs today. I am firmly convinced that AM stands for Absolute Moron. I will not begin to tell you what FM stands for."
(Jasper Carrott)

"Okay, brain. You don't like me, and I don't like you, but let's get through this thing and then I can continue killing you with beer."
(Homer Simpsom, The Simpsons)

"Love is like a rhino, short-sighted and hasty; if it cannot find a way, it will make a way."

"Smile and the world smiles with you. Fart and you smile alone."

"When angry, count to four; when very angry, swear."
(Mark Twain)

"Honesty is the best policy, but insanity is a better defense."
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Wednesday, March 16, 2005



i cant think of anything sensible to write about, so please allow me to blab my way through here.

My mom let me read this article about Dr. Josette T. Biyo, a public school teacher from Iloilo who won the INtel Excellence in Teaching award in the US, besting 4000 candidates from all around the world. She's a PhD holder and she opted to teach in a public school in Iloilo. Though she faced unimaginable difficulties in the seemingly-poor life she chose to live, you wont see a speck of regret in her. She loves what she does, and that's why the people whom she has touched, like her students, love her just as much.

You know what else is so cool about her?
A minor planet was named after her, pare!
How cool is that?
Hmm..Parang Jamie Sullivan...Landon had a star named for her right? Hehe. Sweeet.

The Massachusetts Institute of Technology Lincoln Laboratory in Boston named a minor planet in her honor. Now, there's a Planet Biyo rotating around the sun located between Mars and Jupiter.

Lupeeeeeet.

Maybe someday, I can achieve something just as great..
..and have a whole planet named after me too.

Planet Nix.

Astig. =D

But for the meantime, my own little space located between planet Master's-bedroom and planet walk-in-closet would do. I may not be as great as Ms Biyo as to have a celestial body named after me, but hey, Ive got whole green planet who needs saving here...so Ill work my super powers in this world first. =P
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I got this from Jo's blog... and boy, did it make me squirm. (No offense meant Jo. Believe it or not, I share your pain...really.)

this is driving me nuts.

I can't make you smile like she does
I can't make you laugh like you do with her
I can't make you think about me, when she's all that's in your head
I can't make you see me, when your eyes are all for her
I can't make your heart thump, like she does when she's around
I can't make you happy, if your happiness is being with her
I can't make you feel alive, when she is all your life
I can't make you love me, when you're busy loving her.


Sigh.

But you know what the worst thing is?

She used to be me.

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Pick up lines
Pick-up lines by the Signs

Aries I'm on fire. Can I run through your sprinkler? -> lol. Im an Arian/Ariean? =))

Taurus I just had to come talk with you. Sweetness is my weakness.

Gemini Do you have any overdue library books? 'Cause you've got the word "fine" written all over.

Cancer Can I borrow a quarter? I want to call my mom and tell her I just met the person I'm going to marry.

Leo Is it hot in here, or is it just me?

Virgo Baby, you must be a broom, 'cause you just swept me off my feet.

Libra If I had a rose for every time I thought of you, I'd be walking through my garden forever.

Scorpio Your place or mine?

Sagittarius Hi, I'm writing a term paper on the finer things in life. Can I interview you?

Capricorn Have you always been this cute, or did you have to work at it?

Aquarius You're hot. You must be the reason for global warming.

Pisces Are you as beautiful on the inside as you are on the outside?


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Sunday, March 13, 2005


vacation!
BELATED HAPPY BIRTHDAY DANIELLE! (March 08) Luv ya! Mwah! =D

wow. im technically on my vacation already.
no more tests.
no more school work.
in short, paradise.
Lol.

well, not really.
id still have to worry about a lot of things, like:
a) summer review classes (sa MSA, for those who are interested, call them up already..hehe)
b) LOSE WEIGHT..i mean..mass...or arm-fats..or whatever. right danielle? goal: 24' waistline = ASA? haha.
c) my birthday? on Easter Sunday, pipol. hihi. *ahem ahem*
d) college applications. =O
e) my love life? wahaha. right marge? =x
f) my credits, my email account, my blog. i dont want my friends to think that ive become non-existent again this summer. hehe.
g) Search-In

uhh, a whole bunch of other stuff.
Cant wait. =D

Oh, and thank you to all the people who went to Awie's house last Friday!
We ate. We drank. Some got drunk. Hehe.
Hope everyone had fun! ;)
Belated Happy Birthday to Awie! (Feb 28)
Advanced Happy Birthday to Carmi! (Mar 17)

Wait, so should I greet myself too? haha.
Am I excited to be 17?
Seventeen.
uhh..pano ulit 'to sa tagalog?
Ayun. Labingpitong taong gulang.
hehe.
My nearing birthday just serves as a reminder of how innocent I am, how much Ive missed in life, how many opportunities I regret not taking...but at the same time, it serves as my freakin wake-up call.
My world now has become so much bigger than it was 17 years ago.
And now that Im almost old enough to know that karma is real, that mush is pathetic, that school isnt that bad, that boys do lie, that my body parts are still developing and I need not panic, that technology is a miracle, that crying is therapeutic...in short, that life is one heck of a painful yet great thing...Im more than ready to face my coming days, weeks, months, years, and decades.

Anyway, I watched A Walk to Remember again on HBO this afternoon.
Its one of my favoritEST movies of all time.
Not that Ive watched a lot of movies, hehe, but that movie never fails to make me cry.
Scene after scene, I feel as if the images being transmitted through my tv reach through my chest and instantaneously? squeeeze my heart.
Seriously.
A friend and I were texting as we were watching it. And he probably felt the same shivers I felt during those few hours of movie-watching.
It didnt come as a surprise to me when he admitted that this movie made him cry as well.
Maybe every guy wishes for his own Jamie Sullivan.
I cant speak for all the lasses though, but as for me, Ive long been wishing for my very own Landon Carter to come.
Excluding the fact that Shane West was such a hottie in the movie, lol, the fact that Landon, was changed by Jamie from Mr. Mean Popular to her loving boyfriend made me love his character even more.

Her life may not have lasted long enough, but the meaningful moments they had together make up for the lost years.

She changed his life.
He was her miracle.
What more could you ask for?

Hehe. Anyway, I have to get into poetry-mode now. I have to finish my English project. =O
I have to go to school tomorrow to submit the poem and to have my clearance signed.
Haay.
After tomorrow, Ill officially be heading towards my long-awaited summer vacation. Woohoo. =D

Here's a shout out to: JANA (who's happily married now...bwahaha), DWARD (I'll miss you and your mp3 player! Lol.), and to whoever you are who's reading this right now. Hehe. ;)
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Sunday, March 06, 2005


Bedshaped
I loooooooove this song. <3

"Bedshaped"
by Keane

Many's the time I ran with you down
The rainy roads of our old town
Many the lives we lived in each day
And buried altogether
Don't laugh at me
Don't look away

You'll follow me back
With the sun in your eyes
And on your own
Bedshaped
And legs of stone
You'll knock on my door
And up we'll go
In white light
I don't think so
But what do I know?
What do I know?
I know!

I know you think I'm holding you down
And I've fallen by the wayside now
And I don't understand the same things as you
But I do

Don't laugh at me
Don't look away

You'll follow me back
With the sun in your eyes
And on your own
Bedshaped
And legs of stone
You'll knock on my door
And up we'll go
In white light
I don't think so
But what do I know?
What do I know?
I know!

And up we'll go
In white light
I don't think so
But what do I know?
What do I know?
I know!
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abortion

Suction-Aspiration

In this method, the cervical muscle ring must be paralyzed and stretched open. The abortionist then inserts a hollow plastic tube with a knife-like edge into the uterus. The suction tears the baby’s body into pieces. The placenta is cut from the uterine wall and everything is sucked into a bottle.


Eek.
Abortion is one topic that will never cease to reap contention.
Abortion is the unjust taking of an innocent life. A fetus is no more a human being than an egg is a chicken.
We were once able to watch this film where they showed how abortion is actually done.
You could blatantly see how the fetus is crushed and sucked as if it were just some lifeless mass.
Its downright cruel.

And I am obviously pro life.
Believe it or not, I have been quite absorbed by this Philosophy Term Paper were supposed to do.
I havent actually started making my term paper yet, being the procrastinator that I am, but Ive been reading from the net, the encyclopedia, and this book I borrowed from the library, and my views regarding this touchy issue are starting to take form.

No to abortion.

Hehe. Wala lang.
See. Sir Cortel s lectures arent so useless after all. The things we learn in school can actually be applied in real life.

Speaking of school, I cant believe that the schoolyear s almost over.
The mass held yesterday was the Batch 2005s last, and this bunch of people will definitely be missed.
Whenever the thought of being a Senior crosses my mind, I cant help but look back and realize how fast high school life has been.
It seemed like only yesterday when we were just being not.so.innocent kids, cramming for Chem tests, running from snotty Seniors, worrying about our lovelives, jeering for each others class, crying over missed opportunities, getting drunk during parties, and growing up like the way we are supposed to.
Growing up isnt an easy task.
This has been proven by batchmates of mine who seem to be stuck in the realm between childhood and adolescence, or should I say, adulthood.

Adulthood.
22 days more to go before my birthday.
Im turning 17.
A year left before I officially become an *gulp* adult.

Thats one scary thought. =o

Oh, btw, thank you to all those who gave me a retreat letter!
Things like that are greatly appreciated, especially by someone like me whos easily gladdened by simple deeds of thoughtfulness.


Truly, no other feeling can surpass that of loving and being loved. =)


No mush intended.


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Tuesday, March 01, 2005



Sorry. But Im bored and sick so heres the product of that lousy combination:
Surveys. =)

LAST NAME: librada
LAST HAIRCUT: just last Friday!
LAST PIERCE/TATOO: piercing? Nung baby pako! Haha.
LAST CRY: hmm.. during the weekend. :o
LAST SWEAR: hmm..cant remember. I don’t curse that anymore. Wehe.
LAST SONG HEARD: bedshaped by keane
LAST WATCHED TV SHOW: HomeBoy! Ahaha.
LAST WEBSITE: my blog.
LAST YELL: this morning. =P
LAST MOVIE: errr.. I watched this morning..sa HBO nga lang. LOL.
LAST MISSED CALL: some annoying unknown number who keeps miss-calling me! =o
LAST RECEIVED CALL: from dixie’s
LAST NUMBER DIALED: Danielle s.
LAST SMS SENT: uhh, to my email add.
LAST SMS RECEIVED: from friend.
LAST BATH: last night
LAST FIST FIGHT: never been in one. Unless my fights with my brother are included. Hehe.
LAST ACHIEVEMENT: getting a first honor, and excemplary conduct, and a perfect attendance award last term. Yabang. Haha.
LAST SMILE: a few seconds ago. =D
LAST TIME U WERE SCOLDED BY UR FOLKS: uhh, I don’t remember. And lets just leave it like that. Hihi.
LAST HARD-LAUGH: yesterday. I laughed at 2 guys who literally bumped into each other last night. Hihi. Sorry guys. I just couldnt help it. Hope your bukol and your nose are okay. =P
LAST TIME U FELT SICK: I FEEL SICK AS OF THIS VERY MOMENT. Really sick.
LAST EXERCISE: last night. Hehe.
LAST TIME U HAD CRUSHES: serious one? Last week? Haha. Crushcrushans? i have em all the time! Lol.
LAST TIME U HAD UR HEART BROKEN: err, not comment. Hehe.
LAST TIME U FELL DEEPLY IN LOVE: when I saw my cousin s puppy! Nyaha.
LAST PERSON U MISSED: my bestfriend, Ces. =/
LAST PERSON U KISSED: my bro! ;)
LAST PERSON U FELL IN LOVE WITH: n/a. hehehe.

LAST FOOD U ATE: chicken adobo. No rice!
LAST DRINK: water
LAST THING U BOUGHT: Hany from the sarisari store. Haha.
LAST CD U BOUGHT: I dont buy cds. Waha.
LAST TIME U RENTED A VCD/CD: I dont rent either. Im such a loser.
LAST TIME U BOUGHT A VCD/DVD: I dont have the money. I just ask my parents to buy me stuff. Told ya im a loser. =P

LAST TAKEN PHOTO OF URSELF: last Friday.
LAST MALL U WENT TO: atc.
LAST TIME U TRIPPED AND FELL: last night! Nauntog pako. Karma! Haha.
LAST TIME U BROKE A GLASS: hmm. Last month? I broke the mirror inside my pouch. =/

LAST TIME U PRAYED: last night.
LAST TIME U WENT OUT WITH FRIENDS: hmm. Christmas? Nyaha.
LAST PLACE U WENT TO: sarah s house for the SI elections.
LAST ANO?: hmmm baka you wanna elaborate...?
LAST ANNOYANCE: this morning.
LAST SAID ONLINE: kanina..may ibang nagonline. Haha.
LAST TIME U GOT ANGRY: yesterday. Dismissal time. Hehe. got pissed.
LAST PERSON(s) U WENT OUT WITH: my family?

1. Call me – Nikki. Kung close tayo, Nix. Hehe.
2. What color of pants are you wearing right now? Im wearing a pair of comfy cotton shorts. Not pants.
3. What Are You Listening To Right Now? – taking back Sundays cute without the e.
4. What Was The Last Thing You Ate? – Cubee! Hehe.
5. Do You Believe In Karma? – no doubt about it.
6. If You Were A Crayon, what color would you be?- black or white.
7. How Is The Weather Right Now?- hoooot.
8. Last Person You Talked To On The Phone? – hmm. Dixie. Haha.
9. Do You Like The Person Who Sent You This? – I just copied this from somewhere. Hehe.
10. How Are You Today? – I feel totally sick.
11. Favorite Drink? – chocolate. Hihi.
12. Favorite Alcoholic Drink? – I don’t drink. Good girl to. Lol.
13. Favorite Sports – im a loser remember? Im not an athlete. Haha. How bout cheerdancing? Rofl.
14. Hair Color? – black?
15. Eye Color? – dark brown?
16. Favorite Band? – Rivermaya. Keane. Maroon 5.
17. Favorite Singer? – Alicia Keys
18. Favorite Months?- MARCH. Haha. Feb & Dec.
19. Favorite Food?- sweets.
20. Last Movie You Watched? – dont ask. Harhar.
21. Favorite Day of the Year? – Christmas. My birthday.
23. What Was Your Favorite Toy As A Child? – Barbies? And my cute pink doll named Jessica? Haha.
24. Summer or Winter?- we don’t experience winter here, hunny. So summer.
25. Hugs Or Kisses? – pwede both? Lol.
26. Chocolate Or Vanilla? – It depends. hmm. Both na rin. Haha.
27. What Is Under Your Bed? - NOTHING...I HOPE...haha.
28. Friend You Have Had The Longest? – marge. ;)
29. What Did You Yesterday? – went to school. Went to sarahs house. Went back home.
30. Favorite Color?- Purple. Turquoise. White. Red.
31. Who Inspires You? – God. My family. And my crushes? Waha. Jk.
32. What Are You Afraid Of? – the dark. Rejection. Failure. Unexpected death. And cats.
33. Plain, Buttered Or Salted Popcorn? –Buttered and salted. Cheese-flavored popcorn.
34. favorite flower? – the classical red rose.
35. Number Of Keys On Your Key Ring? – wala. Rofl.
36. Favorite Days Of The Week? – Tuesdays, Fridays. Weekends.


**********


1.1st time you tried smoking:-- back in grade 6? Isang puff lang. Just to see why smokers are so hooked to it. Lol. I hate smokers.

2. 1st alcoholic drink you had:-- champagne? Red wine?

3. 1st time you entered a bar:-- after the prom!
4. 1st award you received:-- Most Outstanding something. Back in Montessori! Hehe.
5. 1st hero:-- superman? Lol.
6. 1st time you were sent to the principal fordisciplinary actions:-- freshman year! For STEALING daw! Lol. Aack.
7. 1st goal you accomplished:--getting the highest score in the philo exam during the first term! Ahaha.
8. 1st crush?—aaron carter? And..uh, a classmate.
9. 1st person whom you gave flowers:-- my mom.
10.1st friend:-- err. I cant remember. This girl named cathy? Oh, this neighbor of mine named carlo! And this other neighbor named ryan! Ahaha. Weird.
11.1st kiss:-- never been kissed! =p sa cheeks, this crazy batchmate back in preschool. Haha.

12. 1st record you bought:-- not applicaple. Hehe.
13. 1st song you sang infront of many people:-- Tomorrow! I sang it in front of my dads officemates. Haha.
14. first musical instrument you learned to play:-- recorder.
15. 1st local&foreign concert you watched:-- n/a. lol.
16. 1st celebrity you saw in person:-- vilma santos. Christopher de leon. And the whole cast of this local movie. Waha. We were in the movie daw nga eh. Lol.
17. 1st TV show you really liked:-- Sesame Street! Rupert! And other Ichannel cartoons. Hehe.
18.1st buk u bought:-- archie comics? Haha.
19. 1st sport you played:-- hmm. Cant remember.

20. 1st sleepover:-- my cousin s house.
21. 1st terrible fight:-- with my mom. =o
22. 1st inaanak (first godchild?):-- Gelli!!

23. 1st debut (filipino girly 18th bday party)party you attended:-- ate rose s debut!
24. 1st bestfriend/s—our neighbor, carlo. Haha.
25. 1st wedding you attended:-- my tita s wedding. I used to always be the flower girl then. Hihi.
26. 1st person who greeted you on your lastbday:-- Last year, Noel. This year, Boggs. Kahit matagal pa birthday ko. Lol.
27. 1st friend in friendster:-- hmm. Cant remember.
28. 1st cellphone:-- Nokia Ringo! Di pa uso cellphones nun. Haha.
29. 1st cellphone ringtone:-- RING RING.
30. 1st collection:-- Polly Pockets!
31. 1st tym u saw a ghost?—Never saw one. But ive always been haunted. =O
32. 1st rollercoaster ride?—Yung sa storyland. LOL. My parents never allowed me to ride the big ones.
33. 1st ambition:-- to be a teacher, a cashier, to be an actress/singer, or the tollgate person. Haha.
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I found this printed at the back of the short bond paper where I printed the Financial Sector group's report.
I let a friend read it and then he asked me,

Ikaw gumawa nito?

DI NOH.

HINDI AKO TANGA

Hahaha. Hindi ako tanga. Haha. Hindi ako umoo sa iyo. Haha.

Bakit pala ako tumatawa? Hindi nga ako tanga, pero hindi naman ako masaya. Buti pa si Ezang, tanga nga, masaya naman… kasi kayo na uli.

Muntik na akong umoo sa iyo noon nung tumawag ka tatlong linggong nakaraan. Sabi mo kasi tatawag ka uli, nag I love you too pa nga ako bago natin binaba ang telepono, sabi mo may gagawin ka lang sandali. Alas-diyes nun. Nag-internet muna ako, nag-check ng mail. Alas onse. Alas dose. Sa sala na nga ako matutulog para katabi ko ang telepono. Ala una. Antok na antok na ko pero alas dos na di ka pa tumatawag.

“Tal, gising na samahan mo ko!” Nanay ko yun ah. Uy, may araw na, nakatulog pala ako. Hindi ka tumawag, tinignan ko ang cellphone ko, wala ka namang text.

Hindi ko alam kung matutuwa ako nung araw na yun, kasi nakausap kita nung gabi. Wala pang alas-otso nung tumawag ka, so matagal na rin yun, dalawang oras. Pero hindi ako umoo e. At di ka rin tumawag uli.

Ewan ko, what held me back, malamang ang mighty hand ni Lord, galing talaga Niya! He really works in mysterious but wonderful ways.

In fairness, hindi naman ako umiiyak, nakakangiti pa naman ako, hyper pa rin naman ako, pero nakakapagod ding ngumiti kapag naiisip kita with her.

“Atitay, si Shai daw”, sabi ng kapatid kong bunso. Tumawag ang Pakner ko, ang kaklase ng ex mo. Ayun, nagkwentuhan chikahan, at napag-usapan namin si Ezang… at ikaw. Noon palang kausap kita ay kayo na. Gago ka talaga... gaga din ako. Paniwalang-paniwala na ako sa iyo nun, pero natatakot lang ako. Sinabi mo pa nun na kung maging tayo, di mo ko sasaktan at maghihiwalay lang tayo kung ako ang sumira dahil di mo sisirain.

Kayo daw. Simpleng, “May syota ka?” “Wala, ikaw?” “Wala, mahal mo pa ko?” “Oo, ikaw?” “Oo, tayo na?” “Oo.”

Hahaha.

Yun ang reaction ko kay Shai. Sabi ko tanga talaga ni Ezang. Patawa-tawa, chumismis, tawa pa uli.

Pagbaba ng phone, napaisip ako.

Sinira ko ang sembreak ko for you?! Nag-i-internet ako pag umaga na, umaga as in mga 6am, sembreak yun ah! Ganun ang internet ko kasi baka pag gabi tumawag ka. Di ko nga tinatawagan at sinasagot ang mga tawag nila Liz, Jhen, Ej, Jao at kung sinu-sino pang katelebabad ko dahil baka tumawag ka. Buti na nga lang daw Digitel si Tek kasi kung nagkataon, di ko rin siya kakausapin.

Alam mo ba na pinagtatanggol kita sa nanay ko, tatay ko, mga kapatid ko, mga tita at tito ko, mga pinsan ko, mga kaibigan at kaklase ko, maid namin, mga kaibigan ng nanay ko at pati na sa pusa ko! Sabi ko, mabait ka at kahit na lima ang tattoo mo, dating user ng bato, tsongki at ecstasy, alcoholic, chain smoker, year ahead sa kin pero naging ka-batch kita kasi bumagsak ka ng grade 4, hindi nag-aaral (one week sa AMA nung 1st yr 1st sem, two minutes sa Jose Feliciano 2nd sem, di pumasok last sem at di papasok this sem) at kahit part time lang sa McDo o kahit saan lang wala, e sinasabi kong mabait ka talaga at di lang nabibigyan ng pagkakataon.

Pero di ka na tumawag ulit e. Malamang gumagawa na naman kayo ng anak. Pwede, huwag nyo nang ipalaglag yan. Kawawa na yung huli, limang buwan na rin yun.

Anyway, ok na rin siguro yun. E hindi ata talaga tayo e. Third year pa tayo nagcoconfess ng ating burning passion for each other pero di talaga matuloy-tuloy. Sabi mo nung huli tayong mag-usap, ayaw mo na akong mawala sa iyo. O bakit pinabayaan mo ko?

Bahala ka buhay mo! Di kita kailangan! sabi nga ni Rachel Alejandro, “paalam na, aking mahal, mahirap sabihin, paalam na, aking mahal, masakit isipin, na kahit nagmamahalan pa, puso’t isipa’y magkaiba, maaaring di lang laan, sa isa’t-isa…”

Haha, hindi ako tanga na habulin ka at magmakaawa para hiwalayan mo siya at balikan ako.

Oh well, sige, tanga din ako. Gaga pa nga e. I just didn’t act on it. So may konting utak pa ako, kasama na rin ng pagiging in control ni Lord. Lord, salamat, galing Mo talaga!

At least, chin up ako dahil may direction ang buhay ko at hindi isang dakilang bum ang syota ko at pwede kong ipagsigawan na hindi ako tanga, di ako umoo sa yo! I have a life! Pumasa ako sa Hum 1! Binayaran na ni Armie utang niya! Binigyan ako ng 100 dollars ng Ninong ko! May pasok na, I’m back with people na kayang bigsakin ang ‘as usual’ di gaya mo. Makakasalamuha ko uli ang mga tao na kilala si Joma Sison, hindi gaya mo na akalang siya yung kumanta ng Christmas in our Hearts, Jose Marie Chan yun gago.

Haha.

Pero kahit anong ngiti at halakhak ang gawin ko, alam kong alam mong tanga ako.
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