Tuesday, November 29, 2005


Sleepless

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Youd know that I still do."

(Laguna Beach)

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If youre a high school student, kindly answer this 9-item survey for me please.
Thank you. =)
Please, please, please, click on the link below. Thanks! =)

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Ive already downloaded and watched 7 episodes of The OCs 3rd season.
So far, its been filled with drama and tension. I liked the old seasons better. o:

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Oh, and Ive started downloading Smallville episodes too.
Tom Welling, here I come! *swoons* Haha.


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Ive been awake for approximately 30 hours now. I didnt sleep AT ALL last night. Not even for a minute. I just chatted the night away and got away with good conversations with good friends.
Nothing beats late-night/early-morning chats. Lol.

And guess what? I managed to take a Pol Sci long test, a Physics quiz, and I even got to make a new song with my groupmates at IC's house.
All that with 0 hours of sleep

Wow.
I think Im discovering my powers.
Haha.

Im done with my Fil Term paper, Music reaction paper, and Fil survey.
Ive only got the Science and Math and a half of our Art projects left.
After this is all over, I am going to glorify the heavens and dance like a wild hippo. Or something like that. Dare me. Hahahahahah.

And oh my, I was surrounded by couples all day long! Waaah.
Everyone IS pairing up.
Good thing I still had Jana with me today, right hun? Haha.
I want a partner too! Lol.

Good night everyone!
I never thought Id be this glad to actually feel my bed again. =)

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- n|x - was loved at 8:58 PM
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~I will keep your secrets. Just think of me as the pages of your diary.~



My Song

Its 1:36 in the morning, and I still have to go to school in a few hours.

Add to that the Long Test I have to take, and the projects I have to make.

And this truckload of ka-sentihan that struck me tonight. Waaah. =)

Leaving You
Session Road


Im watching me make a fool of myself
Silently speaking my wish to be free
Turning my world inside out
Spin my emotions building my doubt

I fed on this strangeness plain and true
But there was nothing beneathe it i knew
I see myself falling falling from grace
My life fading without grace

Im tired of waiting here fo you
Cant waste my time, im leaving you

Im watching me make a fool of myself
Silently speaking my wish to be free
Turning my world inside out
Spin my emotions building my doubt

And now that youve taken the world out of me
Im left with my body hanging free
As lovers come and comfort me
Im still left with my misery

Im tired of waiting here fo you
Can’t waste my time, im leaving you

Im leaving you
- n|x - was loved at 1:35 AM
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~I will keep your secrets. Just think of me as the pages of your diary.~


Monday, November 28, 2005


I dont want to go back to school yet...
Maybe Im gonna go with what my friend's status says:
"Im tired of... a lot of things."

Sometimes, you just get so damn tired of trying to put the pieces back together to form that one big, clear picture youve been vying for. But nonetheless, you keep on trying coz you know thats the only way to find out whether its real or not.

Sometimes, you get all confused by all the bedlam that that new, shiny thing caused and you end up thinking about how it may feel like to actually own it - to have it as yours. But despite the temporary hubbub, you try to remain calm with the hopes of letting it land in your hands once its time.

Sometimes, you get all confused by how people around you act. The folly and madness seems irrevocably luring, thinking that youve finally landed another target, but in the end, you put yourself back together and try your best to remain numb to what they have been showing you. But to no avail, you fail.

You feel, predictably. And to feel is dangerous.

That is where your mind fails you, and your heart takes over.
And youve got no choice but to let it take you where it leads you. =)

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I only realized now that my entries have been so madrama and uh, " bigo-sounding" Haha.
I guess it just always slips my mind that whatever I write here is broadcasted to the entire world wide web.
Oh well.
As if everyone would care.
And for those who do, dont worry. I am so effin great. ;)

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"IF U COULD STEAL ONE THING FROM ME WAT WUD IT BE? AND Y? ur reply is a must. Ü Forward this to all ur friends & u'l be amazed at the replies =)"

This message was passed around in YM a while ago.
I was kinda hesitant to message the other people, so I selected a good few whom I thought could give good answers.
And hey, I wasnt disappointed.
I was actually surprised by what most of them said.

"utak mo..."
"your wavy hair!"
"your uniqueness.."
"talent for writing"
"sobrang daling kausap.."
"open-mindedness.."

"your heart. =)"

wow.

Some gave really good answers like:

"utak mo! and ur heart =)"
me: " if you steal both..then im gonna end up dying ..haha. deh"
"ok lang.. at least u'll end up dying beside me =)"

Haha. Wala lang. Kahit na (as my friend put it) "balls" alng siguro yung mga ganon, it still doesnt fail to put a smile on my face.
It pays off to share a part of you with other people, coz somehow, you know that they appreciate it. And thats more than I could ever ask for. ;)

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- n|x - was loved at 11:22 PM
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Saturday, November 26, 2005


wala lang.
got this from the net.

Think about this. You may not realize it, but it's 100% true.
1. There are at least two people in this world that you would die for.

2. At least 15 people in this world love you in some way.

3. The only reason anyone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you.

4. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like you.

5. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep.

6. You mean the world to someone.

7. You are special and unique.

8. Someone that you don't even know exists loves you.

9. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it.

10. When you think the world has turned its back on you, take a look.

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Recommended downloads:



1) Goodbye My Lover - James Blunt

(heard Mischa Barton's gonna be in the video)

2) My Style - Black Eyed Peas feat. Justin Timberlake

(yes, not the hump)

3) Gold Digger - Kanye West

4) Photograph - Nickelback

5) Run It - Chris Brown

6) DOA - Foo Fighters

7) Only - Nine Inch Nails

8) Save Me - Shinedown

9) Cosmic Girl - Jamiroquai

10) Like You - Bow Wow feat Ciara

11) Streetcorner Symphony - Rob Thomas

12) What If - Coldplay

13) Dance, Dance - Fall Out Boy
- n|x - was loved at 11:23 PM
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Green Vibes
Again, I am too lazy to actually write something here. So let me flood this entry with a couple of pics. =)

November 24, 2005
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- attended the mass that only half of the high school students attended to
- watched the grade school's barkada basketball
- watched Futsal (Congrats to the Green team! ;))
- tried out the Giant Slide!
- watched the Battle of the Bands (I loved the performances! and Marc Abaya was one of the judges! =P~)

November 25, 2005
- I was a marshal for the Zobel race! I ran around with team "Underdogs" (Juniors), and they were able to reach the 3rd task I think. I didnt exactly eat breakfast that morning, and I wasnt able to stretch too, so now, my body's hurting bad. haha.
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- watched Barkada Basketball and the game between the UAAP boys and WNCAA girls (the UAAP boys wore boxing gloves on one hand, lol)
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- got a henna tatoo! (the one on the right is Jeanne's glitter tatoo)
- chilled in the gym
- played in the Giant Slide again with Da, Jana, Marge, Chrissie, Danni, Macky, and Poch! (those few minutes made me feel like a kid again! It was actually the most enjoyable part of my fair. Loved it! =))
- Jana and I decided not to attend the Zobel Night, and opted to go with our kada to Marge's house
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- Danielle and I then walked to Town to buy a couple of undies and tops! Ahaha. Laftrip. It took us a few minutes to cross the road, tapos may mga scary mama pa na nakasakay sa trucks na nagh-hi as they passed us. Bwaha. People must have also smirked at the sight of two high school girls buying panties from the stalls. Lol. Mems, Da! =)
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-went to BFHEVA for Lav's surprise debut! IC and I walked to Justin's house to pick him up too. Lol.

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Thats all for now. Sorry if my thoughts are all over the place.
A whole bunch of crazier things happened on those 2 days, but Ill reserve them for my own diary and niche.
Congrats to the SRCC for a job well done. ;)

Maybe by 12:01 this morning, my muse will be back where its supposed to be.

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"I see you...looking at me.
I know youve got something to say, tell me, tell me, and youll have your way."
- n|x - was loved at 5:55 PM
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Wednesday, November 23, 2005


Oh happy day
Im too tired and lazy to type anything, so Im just gonna post some pics here.
With that laziness comes a load of contentment with a hint of confusion, yes, but still uplifting nonetheless. :)

Happy Birthday Ma!
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Im still stuffed with pizza and cake! Haha.
17 ka na! Luv you to bits! Im glad you loved the surprise! =P

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I went to IC's house today with my music groupmates.
My eyes lost their innocence. (This is a scary story. Our CL teacher might burst out in rage once she finds out...haha)
And I have a new crush-crushan. Bwahaha.
Ill blog about this some other time.
Ill just put the CRAZY pics from my phone. Hahaha.
More to come from ICs cam.=D

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1: Yeah, parehong basa buhok namin. Loooong story.
2: Crazy wig, baybeh.
3: Errr. Wala lang. Bitin pag 2 lang eh. Haha. And my hair's supposed to be straight there. =D
Oh, and my hair was straightened today by a flat iron. Mas bagay daw sakin. Haha. ;)

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Speaking of hair, heres Nicco Ramos' hair. Hahahahah.
Double poknat pare.
Naggupitan kasi ng buhok yung mga kaklase ko last week.
It all started with Kryon playing with my hair. He probably cut a few inches! Grrr. Lol.
Tapos yun na, gantihan na. Haha. Laftrip. =P

Anyway, gotta go now.
Last Fair na ng batch namin tomorrow! Waaaaaah.
Might as well enjoy every minute of it! =D
- n|x - was loved at 10:52 PM
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Tuesday, November 22, 2005


Lost and Found 
"I keep trying to understand
this thing and that thing, my fellow man
I guess I'll let you know
when i figure it out

but I don't mind a few mysteries
they can stay that way it's fine by me
and you are another mystery i am missing

It takes so much out of me to pretend"
-Half-Life by Duncan Sheik


"You'll be my vacation away from this place
you know what I want
Holding that cup,
It's pouring over the sides…
Make me wanna spread my arms and fly
"-Chariot by Gavin DeGraw

*Im lovin the lyrics of this song*
Heaven Knows (This Angel Has Flown) by Orange and Lemons

Cause this angel has flown away from me
Leaving me in drunken misery
I should have clipped her wings and made her mine
For all eternity
Now this angel has flown away from me
Thought I had the strength to set her free
Did what I did because I love her so
Will she ever find her way back home to me

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"Vision Mission Celebration" aka our FAIR is in 2 days!
Cant wait! =D

Green Vibes!
Let the Animo surround you! ;)

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I was scanning through my previous posts in this blog, when I suddenly bursted out laughing as I saw the title of my very first entry: " Finding That Someone"

"Finding someone. That shouldnt be too hard, wouldnt you agree? With the abrupt rise in the world s population nowadays, finding someone would be a pretty easy task. Or maybe not. Finding someone you can strike up a conversation with, laugh with, share life stories with, and even share your life with can be quite an ambitious undertaking."
>>click here for the rest of my very first post<<

But here I am, almost a year later...
Mrs. Reyes just had to talk about "love" and "infatuation" today.

And I just had to be surrounded by my young and pretty classmates with,well, boyfriends.
(The "taken ones" form this sort of cross in our seating arrangement. And uh, Im kind of seated at the very tip of that supposed cross)

And I just had to witness how Enzo, together with his whole class (yes, buong Senior-C) and Mrs Reyes, entered our classroom in the middle of our English Class and serenaded Pilar for a good 5 minutes (complete with backup singers and costume...and a kiss). My classmate couldnt help but cry.
And to tell you the truth, some of us were trying our best to hold our tears back.
Damn touching.

"Woah. That was freakin sweet. Youre one lucky girl, Pilar. And he is one lucky guy."

Just one of the few reasons why I still believe in finding that someone...=)

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- n|x - was loved at 6:25 PM
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Follow that red snot..
I have no idea what got into everyone last night (which was technically a few hours ago).
The badvibes and heartaches seemed to pour in from every direction.
Makes me wonder how I manage to still put up a straight face...

People will always have questions, and doubts, and regrets, and fears, and frustrations.
There is no doubt about that.
But if theres one thing I know, they will never stop looking for the answers, the way out, the way in, and even the end.

So you guys, you may not have the answers now, but trust me, they will be given to you.
Whether youre ready or not...whether you like it or not...they will come.

There exists a place within all of us where all that we yearn for is that something or someone that would make us happy.
Wherever it may take you, have no regrets or remorse.

And in the end, it will all boil down to following your heart.

Learn that you cannot make anyone love you. All you can do is let yourselves be loved.
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PS - I had three people telling me that I should be/could pass for a guidance counselor, a psychologist, supergurl.

Well, Id say Im something even greater.
I was being a friend.
And I think thats what Im fairly good at to say the least.
Im just givin back the love to you guys. =)

So if anyone else out there is troubled by their reality/sanity/heart/head, just click on that pink link down there. Haha. ;)

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- n|x - was loved at 12:45 AM
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Sunday, November 20, 2005


HAY-na-KU
My groups' haiku for AP. =)

In Thrall To Innocence

11.20.05


Look me in the eye

And tell me what you can see

Suffering in me

The cold nights I spent

Trapped within towering walls

Abandoned by heart

The ache and hunger

Took over my fears and dreams

No freedom to deem

Tamper with my hope

Free me from these binding chains

Grant me better days

My youth consoles me

As I yearn for life anew

My Lord, set me free
- n|x - was loved at 10:50 PM
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Saturday, November 19, 2005


Still some of me left for the taking...
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Its one of those nights when you feel deserted by your consciousness and you drift into the abyss that is your dream.

The crisp winds and silent crows of the night make you wonder why youre even refusing to retire and finally end the day.

Contrary to what fate has mapped out, you have veered off into another dead end.

The whole world may never understand what goes on inside your head as your insides yell for help. Confused, nay, disabled by your thoughts are the urges and craving for the life that has been stolen from you.

They may never really know what you lack, for they only see what you seem to have. But sometimes, it is only through those shortcomings that they uncover the shadow that envelops your entirety.

He may never really reach the pinnacle of your core. But it is through that climb that you have come to take his hand and rise with him till you both begin again.

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A second chance. Maybe a third.
...until you begin again.

You may never really believe the big drops of rain that have befallen you.
You may be hiding behind the curtain of perfection.
You may be scarred yet remain beautiful.

You may be tired and may be ready to let go.
But to the whole world, there is still some of you left for the taking.

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Image hosted by Photobucket.comCongratulations to the Seniors for placing first at yesterdays JnJ Dance Competition!

Finally, we nailed it!
Were surely gonna end our highschool lives with a bang!
Who's the "star batch" now, huh? =P
We definitely wont let your words bring us down.
Watch out, coz were just gonna keep on rising back up!

I Love Batch 05-06!
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" Were gonna be the makers of the greatest story ever told!"
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