Sunday, July 31, 2005


Strong.
With no light coming from anywhere else, I stare blankly onto the monitor and try to squeeze out every inch of life-lesson Ive learned through time.
For every problem I face, I always try to look for that one, single answer that could be the key to all my burdens.
At times, doing so is as easy as finding the bright, yellow, sun amidst the gloomy skies above.
But more often than not, looking for that answer grows much more painful once we realize that our search is done in vain.
Its like having to find your shadow in the dark night.
Its like having to gasp for air from the deepest part of the ocean.
Its like trying grab hold of the wind.
Its like trying to make your pain go away with your tears.
Its impossible, we think.

Unfair.
Thats what we say.
How couldnt it have turned the way we wanted it to?
Why couldnt have things just been as great as I dreamed them to be?
How come I feel tired of staying strong and trying to understand the reasons behind it all?
Why is it that doubt and confusion overpowers that love that was once there?

There always seems to be an empty space.
And from that emptiness comes the desire to find out what was there before.

There always seems to be that cold and hard heart.
And from that lack of feeling, we think we could numb ourselves from all the confusion.

There will always seem to exist, a dream that will forever be in us.
And from that dream, we try to pull out all our wishes for everything to be right again.

Life probably wont ever get tired of hitting us in the right spot.
It will always find a way to push us down to our knees.
It will always find a way to keep us kissing the ground.

Know that we were born to be hurt.
But also know that we were made to live.

Whatever you go through, all your hardships and pain, theyre part of who you are.
You will always feel the unfairness, and you will always have to fight the feelings of pain.
But dont let those feelings define you.
Only let them make you stronger.
Because thats who you are. Thats what defines you.

Strong.

PS - Thanks for the chocolates. :)
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