*He's the guy that i so desperately try to push out of my head while at the same time cling to our memories with all my might...i knew him really well at one point, then he got lost, i tried finding him, but i realize he's got to find his own way back... back to me? maybe?

i have yet to write about yesterday. i guess im just gonna keep it to myself and not elaborate on the details (everything's in my diary already, nyaha). but nonetheless, 02-14-06 is surely going to be remembered. lots of firsts for me. add to that the fun adventure and the countless bloopers i had. twas one of the loooongest days of my life ever but surprisingly, vday was not so bad after all. not at all. thanks to the people who made it that way. ;)

"whatta day!" :)

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but my theory about how one can be happy today and not-so-happy the next is kicking in again. for some reason, ive been quite moody the entire day. must be because my insides are lagging. with the funny and weird things that have been going on lately, i dont even know what to think anymore.

I shouldnt be left alone with my thoughts for too long. Its always a dangerous thing because sooner or later, my mind starts playing tricks on me.

i have already racked my brains debating myself with what to believe and what to deny. but when things turn all vague on you, you are left with no choice but to shut down and shove it all away.



experience has made me believe in chances. the confusion and the delight that comes with it are inevitable. but im still willing to take them. :)