Sunday, December 25, 2005


giving love on Christmas Day
A Letter To Someone Special

To the person I know best and least,

Yesterday would be a time too soon to describe how everything appears to me now. No longer do you engage in fun and frolic like a kid, caring less of what others would think. Gone are the days when you would dare to wear a shirt and the same pair of jeans your brothers wear, or run around your street with broom-like hair. Time and fate brought age and culture into your existence, and since then, you have become the person I know best and least.

But despite the development of your morale, discovery of your wisdom, and ripening of your heart, you still are the same person underneath it all. Inside that teenage physique lurks a child ready to stare at the tall Christmas trees charmed with every possible magic she can imagine. Wrapped gifts and red envelopes still make your heart beat faster whenever you catch a sight of the ones with your name on it. You never did get tired of singing along those Christmas Carols they play in stores and radio stations. And Christmas still holds its title as your favorite time of the year.

Unfortunately, that child in you has been overshadowed by thoughts of loss and sympathy, barrenness and disappointment, and heartbreaks and downfalls. You have tried time and time again to help others carry their load, seeing how heavy it all seems to them. On a day where happiness and merriment should be thriving, you witness false hopes and broken dreams - families who cant afford a decent noche buena, children longing for new toys and clothes, hearts wishing for miracles and better days.

But never did that stop you from dreaming with them, because it is on the very same day that you see extraordinary strengths, the most innocent joys, and inconceivable love.

Beneath the star-filled skies and amidst the cold breeze of December, you isolate yourself from all the lights and sounds around you and just shut yourself from the world. For a moment, you close your eyes and wish real hard for your heart's desires to come true. For just a moment, you wish for the whole world.

For years youve done just that. And for the same amount of time, that mental checklist of yours fills up annually, one by one.
Santa has been quite good to you too. Come Christmas eve, you suddenly possess the things that youve been wanting - but most of the time, theyre not exactly what you need.

Through time, youve learned that a new pair of shoes is never as good as hearing a "Thank You" from a young orphan. That creating New Year's Resolutions is never practical (since you always end up not following them anyway), but still very ideal. That going to Church is never really enough - being in God's presence for even just a while is. That presents from your family isnt really what you want - its their presence that you need. That you dont really need to have a partner to make you feel whole - because you already are. That Christmas has become absurdly commercialized exploited for some people's financial gain, but love, unity, and peace are words that can never be jaded or stripped of their meanings.

Tonight, I remembered that wish of yours a few years back. You stared at that one bright star and wished for an angel.

This year's Christmas would have been like all the others Ive had in the past - or even worse.
But as I arrived back home tonight, with heavy eyes and a tired form, I again met with the people who I knew really mattered to me.

I stared at the faces so familiar to me, and called to mind your wish.

I dont need to know what angels look like anymore.
I already know.

And that is why I write to you tonight, as Christmas Day ends.

I know you are thankful for everything you have in your life, and everyone who is, has been, and will be a part of it.
You are truly blessed.
Maybe you cant return the favor directly to God, but you can surely pass it on to others.
That way, they can pass it on to someone else, and by the time it reaches you again, youll know that youve made the world a better place.

Learning and loving with you all these years has been a great pleasure.
Hope all your dreams and wishes come true.

Merry Christmas!

P.S. - Justin says hi!
Hope I hear from you soon. ;)

Love,
Me :)

*author's note: if any of you have got anything to tell her too, im sure she'll love to hear from you. :)*
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