Tuesday, December 06, 2005


Happy Anniversary!
Exactly 3 days and a year ago (yes, I forgot that it was last Saturday coz I was too busy asking for saving), I started this blog-slash-online journal.

I was inspired by Anna Owe's and Em Mortel's livejournals, and was pushed by my eagerness to write things and actually have other people read them. I dont exactly remember how I ended up using Blogger, but I almost switched to Xanga and Livejournal a few months back (and yes, I have both of those accounts too).

I guess I was just a frustrated writer who wanted to let the world know that her thoughts existed. That she existed. And that her heart and mind existed.

I was also a frustrated teller of tales. I was never good at making kwento or sharing stories about my life when Im in front of real people. My words just dont seem to catch up with my thoughts, and my mouth wasnt as endowed with narrative skills either. Thus, my thoughts come off better on paper.

I was a frustrated hopeless romantic. Yes, I am now finally admitting that I WAS in love with love. Because of personal (familial) grounds that I dare not relay here , I was caught up with the whole idea of finding your knight in shining armor and eventually living happily ever after. But soon enough, it dawned on me that I was left high and dry by my stupendous fantasy. After having written countless poems and a couple of short stories, I have come to realize that love just isnt what makes the world go round. Life is.

I was my own critic. I defy mediocrity and always aim for the heavens. I did not settle for things that did not satisfy me. Those that did reliquish my expectations turned into long-term goals that I painstakingly scrutinize until now. Personal satisfaction was a must. Fulfillment was binding. And contentment engulfed me.

Writing was my drug.
My aphrodisiac.
My antidote.
My art.
My therapy.
My R and R.
My happyfier.
My forte.
My channel.
My passion.

I was itching to let a few other people know what went on inside my mind, and how my life really is. And for a whole year, I was able to do just that.

It had caused me to stall my sleeping time, delay my plans to study for tests, freeze my conversations with friends, and hog the computer away from my brothers.
I had also shared all sorts of twisted things with the net, from my most ridiculous dreams to my deepest, darkest secrets.
And with all that, came up a year's worth of rambling and pondering.

After 300 or so posts, a couple of misunderstandings, a number of "controversies", a good number of positive responses, a small number of influenced friends, a few souls inspired, and a couple of lives moved, I believe my blog deserves some good commendation.

Happy Anniversary to me and my blog!
Im looking forward to another year filled with more temporary madness. =)

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(Im gonna be posting a couple of my well-received posts soon. Those that annoyed, inspired, tickled, enthused, pleased, and entertained some of the people who actually read what Ive been writing here.

Thank you to those who bother to check up on my URL once in a while, by the way. You just dont know how satisfying it is to know that some of you take the time to stalk me and pry with my boring life.
But seriously, thank you.
It means a lot. ;)

It would fatten my heart even more though if you guys COMMENT and TAG more often. That way, I can thank you more and respond to what you think. Hehe. So cmon and click that link! Lol. =)

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I managed to find my super duper first ever post using blogger, dated December 3 2004.
It was entitled "Life consists not in holding good cards but in playing those you hold well."

A girl and a boy were on a motorcycle, speeding through the night. They loved each other a lot..
Girl: "slow down a little.. I'm scared.."
Boy: "No, it's so fun.."
Girl: "please..it's so scary.."
Boy: "Then say that you love me.."
Girl: "Fine..I love you..can you slow down now?"
Boy: "Give me a big hug.."
The girl gave him a big hug.
Girl: "Now can you slow down?"
Boy: "Can you take off my helmet and put it on? It's uncomfortable and its bothering me while i drive."
The next day, there was a story in the newspaper. A motorcycle had crashed into a building because its brakes were broken.
There were two people on the motorcycle, of which one died, and the other had survived......
The guy knew that the brakes were broken. He didn't want to let the girl know, because he knew that the girl would have gotten scared.
Instead, he was told the last time that she loved him, got a hug from her, put his helmet on her so that she can live, and died himself...
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Image hosted by Photobucket.comSpiderman saved Supergurl today.
The song and the words made her smile.
Appreciation and gratitude shall be mailed to you soon. ;)
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The cutest thing ever:
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- n|x - was loved at 5:04 PM
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~I will keep your secrets. Just think of me as the pages of your diary.~


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