I am afraid I cannot, for the life of me, stop demanding. It is from knowing what I deserve that this mere insistence thrives. I also know myself to be a person who hesitates. If ever I do dare to go beyond that hesitation, I’m still the kind who that takes a step one, without having a step two. Those rare moments come only at a time when I feel the need to spare myself from either further regret or futile heartbreak. But regardless of how I continually play it safe, it’s still because I know what I want and what I am worthy of.

After all is said and done, it all boils down to how and why they realize or fall short of my expectations. It may prove the lesser of the evils to not take it against the person at fault as it also bears out my own oversight of unfairly expecting more than I should have. But because I am the new me, I want to put action into these clairvoyant thoughts. My right to anticipate for more ends where someone else’s will and intent begins. Until I find that someone who will be brave and willing enough to break and even surpass my expectations, only then will I be able to push that green and shiny Play button and let the show, that is my life, go on.