Thursday, January 27, 2005
Seem
11.18.03
I keep climbing but I can’t seem to reach the top
I keep on singing but no one hears me out
The sun keeps shining but why is it always dark?
You keep talking, true lies spill from you mouth
I take it all in, but I can’t seem to taste
Dark clouds loom over you, but you still seem chaste
I’m sewing them all together, but I can’t make them whole
My body is visible, but I have no soul
I’m a living being, but it appears that I’m dead
I’m still grieving over the haughty things that you said
I stand as the crow flies, but I stand in shame
I can picture your face but I can’t utter your name
Seeing things that are invisible to the eye
I’m laughing out loud, but inside I cry
I am wide awake, but I’m living in a dream
I’m smiling, but surely
things aren’t always like they seem...
Haay.
Wala lang.
Where do we go nobody knows?
Don't even say you're on your way down,
God gave you style and gave you grace
And put a smile upon your face, ah yeah
Wednesday, January 26, 2005
Believe it or not, I cried thrice today.
Believe it.
Call me pathetic, call me a crybaby, but my ultra-puffy eyes should be enough evidence to how much of a loser I am.
Hehe.
1) I cried while the whole batch was watching Mga Munting Tinig. I didn’t exactly sob SOB, but I wasn’t able to hold back the tears, especially during the scene where Popoy and his father died. The story portrayed the sad reality that most Filipinos are facing. But nonetheless, the movie was awe-inspiring. I liked the way the movie flowed. No wonder its an internationally-acclaimed movie. Too bad not too many Filipinos bothered to watch it. Tsk tsk.
Oh, and ,Popoy reminded me of my prospect too. Haha. Right Da? =P
2) I fell asleep a few hours after I got home. I was still wearing my skirt and my sando then coz I didnt have enough strength and willpower to even raise my body from my comfy bed. I was too tired. =O And I was frustrated. I was really pissed at some blinding realization I made last night. Owel. My frustration and annoyance was overwhelming. I shed a few teardrops for that too. Labo noh? =P
3) I watched another movie this afternoon. Ive seen this film for like 5 times already, coz if theres one local movie that id always be willing to watch, it would be ANAK. It starred Vilma Santos and Claudine Baretto. I cry EVERY TIME I watch that movie. There were even instances where Id cry scene after scene. And even after the movie ended, youd still find me curled up at the corner of my bed, with a pack of tissue on one hand, and Vicks vaporub on the other. The character of the mother in the movie reminds me of my Mom. But my mom is. . . lets just say, harder to decipher. As Ive said over and over again, Ive got a weird weird weird family. We shout, but we dont talk. We hear, but we don’t listen. Were happy, but were weird. I love my family. . . but I probably would love myself more if I had a seemingly-normal-happy family. =O
Enough of the drama. =P
Nothing much happened today. After we were dismissed this morning, I went straight home.
I was actually allowed to go to ATC, and my bus even passed by Town to drop off my brother, but I decided not to go down. Weird.
Weird. . .
Life is unfair.
Kens status pokes ones consciousness. Coz the reality of it is too blinding.
Biology defines life as = the metabolic activity of protoplasm. But there are times when it seems even worse than that.
Im not miserable. In fact Im a very lucky girl.
But whenever I hear about someone elses misery, I tend to carry the burden with him.
I just cant seem to NOT CARE. And that’s the bad part. Coz Im always there to give advice, to say this and that, to do these things for that person. . .But I never quite learned how to deal with my own burdens.
Life is never fair.
And perhaps it’s a good thing for most of us that its not.
And we haven’t any other choice right?
Unless you want to jump off that 20-storey building and gasp for you last intake of air, you have no other way to go but straight ahead.
Life isn’t always that bad.
The secret of life isn’t just to live.
But to have something worthwhile to live for.
I may be sounding like Sir Cortel now, but thats a fact we all have to accept.
What else can we ever want in our lives anyway, but happiness and contentment.
We only live once. . . but if we make the most out of every second of our existence, I think once is enough.
Wow.
I sound profound today.
Thats cool. Haha.
My statements sound like those quotes you send to people you care for but you dont have the guts to send mushy stuff to them yet. Lol.
Okay, Im smiling now.
Enough of the deep stuff. Why waste my time pondering on life like this?
I better just live it ;)
Tuesday, January 25, 2005
Our whole batch went to CSB and DLSU-Manila today.
And alas! I think I have finally found the course/s I want to take in course.
Either:
a) Bachelor of Science in Commerce, major in Advertising Management
b) BS in Accountancy
c) AB, major in Economics
d) AB, major in Economics and BSC, major in Advertising Management
Haay, basta.
Im dumb when it comes to knowing what this course is or what degree this is, coz in fact, I have no knowledge whatsoever of what they are. All I know is that they involve Accountancy, Economics, and Advertising Management. Though Im still confused until now of which course to take, I think Im inclined to these 3 fields. So, there.
Either I take one of those courses OR I end up enrolling for the
Weird. Thats like my 8th attempt to incorporate humor in my thoughts. Ive been making lame hirits all day.
Heres one example:
1) *When Macky pointed out these college guys and girls who were ballroom dancing inside the sports complex-thingy of DLSU, he made a hirit which kinda went like: “Nikki oh, si TY Tang!” And then, as an attempt to throw back the hirit at him, I said something like: “Di kaya, baka si TY TONG!” Lol. And believe it or not, someone laughed at my joke. If you could even call it a joke. Hahahaha.
I was actually thinking of sharing my other JOKES, but then If I do that, I know my friends will make fun of me tomorrow, so never mind. Hehe.
I feel dead as of this very moment.
My legs are tired from walking.
Paakyatin ba naman kami ng 8 floors using the stairs lang, tapos para ka pang nasa loob ng oven sa init. Sino bang di mapapagod nun diba?
I had fun bonding with my friends though.
2-seater yung bus namin. UNFORTUNATELY FOR ME. Right bud? Deeh. :p
We sat somewhere at the back of the bus pa, so we were in front of the noisy guys.
Even though everyone was busy making their own private noise, Jan stood out from all the rest. With his i-pod in hand, and with guts thats probably larger in size than everyone elseS, he let everyone hear his oh-so-wonderfully-entertaining concert.
Siya naman yung parang high kanina. Lol.
He was shouting and singing and shouting and singing. And I think there were times when he was doing both at the same time. Haha.
Ni-record ko pa yung isang song number nila kanina ni Macky.
It actually sounded more like dogs howling, or pigs being sentenced to death.
DEEEEEH. =P
They sing well. They really do. Haha. Binawi daw.
But seriously. The guys in class can sing.
But the recording of their song kanina sounded like a synthesized lullaby for mental patients.
Lol.
But its always fun to have those guys of our around.
From their simplest to most ridiculous hirits, one cannot help but laugh like a hyena when they joke around.
And NO, theyre not HONOR-SEC JOKES. Wtf.
Theyre jokes that only semi-mature brains like ours can conceive.
And thats what makes us all fun. Crazily fun.
=D
PS- I think Da was able to spot around 20+ cute guys in DLSU and CSB. Hahaha. More reason for me to go enrol there. DEH. =P
Monday, January 24, 2005
Kabobohan.
v Notice sa isang Megalink ATM: OOF LINE
v Sa billboard ng isang motel: AFFORDABLE, CLEAN, AND CONVENIENCE
v Sa isang pader sa Laloma: HULI IHI, PUTOL TITI
v Sa isang self-service restaurant sa
v Sa isang highway sa Pampanga: WE MAKE MODERN AND ANTIQUE FURNITURE
v Sa delivery truck: NOT FOR HERE
v Sa isang pabagsak nang pader sa
v Sa isang pader: MARUNONG KA BANG KUMAHOL? ASO LANG ANG UMIIHI DITO!
v Sign ng PLDT: SLOW MEN AT WORK
v WELCOME TO THE
v Sa isang building sa
v Sa dating BLumentritt branch: FAR EAST BANK and _RUST COMPANY
v Sa grocery sa
v Sa isang bahay na katabi ng auto repair shop: NO PARKING AND REPAIR HERE
v Sa Cubao: NONE ID NOTHING ENTRY
Ang talino nga naman ng mga Pilipino.
Hehe.
From Bob Ongs book Bakit Baliktad Magbasa ng Libro ang mga Pilipino?
Ive got this semi-big slice of caramel cake in front of me.
Yes, nakapatong yung plates sa computer table. Lol.
Beside it is this cup of water. Cup. Not glass. Its my favorite cup and its the one with the sunflower design on it. Flowersss. Hihi.
Shet. Ang labo ko.
Haha. Im like experiencing this NATURAL high.
Though im not exactly sure if NATURAL would be the right word for it coz I think this was caused by my incessant inhaling of the fumes that were produced while we were soldering kanina. But nonetheless, at least this feeling wasnt induced by some pills or grass or whatever which some other STUPID people opted to pick as their source of temporary pleasure. Sheesh. How stupidly insane can you get?
Haay. I dont want to think about it anymore. Umiinit lang ulo ko. >=|
Anyway, let me share with you the little things I saw during my almost-30-minute journey through the streets of Tunasan, Muntinlupa. Oh, and mind you, I was aboard our new and improved 2010 model L300 bus. Asenso na nga eh, naayos na yung radio. Haha. But too bad Im being such a goodie-goodie girl again. Even though I have the power to turn the knob of our ancient radio, I chose not to mess with our driver Mang Robert/Mang Bog? Lol. Pinagbigyan ko na lang. Kahit na feeling ko sasabog na yung eardrums ko at kahit na nangingilabot na ako sa inis, I just let him enjoy his simple source of joy, that is listening to WRR 101.9 For Life! Wahahaha. =P
So anyway, here are some of the scenes I took note of during my trip home:
DAHAN-DAHAN LNG PO ANG PAGDAAN SA HARAP NG BAHAY. PUMAPASOK
SALAMAT
AT MAAWA NA
Or something like that. Hahahaha.
Poor Pinoys. Pati mga bahay sa loob ng villages binabaha na din.
But then, I think I actually found him cute. He was wearing this rocker-ish shirt on, was also wearing earrings, and he was smirking at me. Wahaha. Kadiri. So anyway, for a second there, I thought this guy was actually uhh, cute. BUT THEN, the moment I saw him raise his arm and puff his CIGARETTE, my face probably turned red and smoke must have traveled from my polluted lungs and out my 2 ears due to my severe irritation. I haaate smokers. Eek. I used to have this, uhh, friend. Lol. He promised me that he would stop smoking, and well, he did stop for a while. But then, unfortunately for him, I caught him smoking during one occasion. He didnt see me, and until now he thinks Im okay with his vice, but frankly, whenever I see him, my left eyebrow has this involuntary urge to go up a few centimeters higher than usual. Lol. BUT, theres this other guy friend of mine who, after meeting me last November 2003, decided to stop smoking! Woohoo. Lol. And I have my cousins and other good friends to attest to that. And he only told me a couple of months after he actually quit because according to him, he wanted to make sure that his body has really stopped craving for nicotine. Hehe. Cool huh? I made someone change for the better. Haha. Wala lang. Kaya sa mga naninigarilyo dyan, at pati na rin dun sa mga nagpapakalasing na lang lagi, tigil tigilan nyo na ok? Lalong-lalo na yung mga sinisira ang buhay dahil sa mga walang-kwentang bagay. Think you look cool doing that? Well, heres a thought: you look like crap to me.
= Before I end up cursing again, hehe, heres a lighter and cuter kwento. When we were passing by my other busmateS house naman, I saw this oooooooverly cute kid! He was mestizo and he had really nice eyes. And not only that, he was peeing at that time! Ahaha. But no, Im not being a pedophile, okay? Lol. He was done already when our bus passed by and I saw him giggle like an angel when he saw the other kids in our bus laughing. Hehe. Wala lang. Cute eh. I love cute kids. =P
= Hmm. Ive got some few other kwentos, but I think that would be enough for today. =P
A friend of mine was wishing that DLSU and CSB would be infested would ooh-la-la college boys tomorrow, so maybe if I wish with her and with all the other girls in the batch, our little request would come true. Haha.
The boys are probably excited to see all those college chicks too. So, fair lang. Hehe.
If you can spare me a few seconds of your very precious time, please post anything on my tagboard.
If youre a guy, I can give you a kiss as a payback for the post.
If youre a girl, a picture of your favorite celeb would do.
Lol. JOKE.
Minsan lang ako maging high tulad nito, kaya pagbigyan nyo na ako. Hehe. =P
Sunday, January 23, 2005
1.Pinakagusto mong tawag sayo?
Nix ;) Even Sir Brite called me that. Haha.
2. Latest addiction?
Chocnut (always has been), my blog
3. Meron ka bang crush ngayon?
umm, yea? =D
4. Food na gusto mo kainin ngayon?
Silvanas. Ice monster. And Chocopeanut ice cream!
5. Nakakatawang HS memory
Uh, tagos and bra strap mems? Lol. OPs!!! Nawaral, etc!
6. Kalokohang ginawa nung college.
high school pa lang po ako.
7. LSS mo ngayon?
this is the last time - keane
8. unforgettable teacher? and why?
sir llaguno – tinawag nyang BASURA yung first OP naming. Naiyak pa tuloy kami ni Marge! Sina Carlo, Rocky, Dous, and Tom kasi! Haha. But eventually, he loved our OPs =D
9.
Buchi? This orange food thingy rom Batangas. Hehe.
10. Fave childhood game?
Chinese garter! Is that what you call it? Yung 10-20? Hehe. Jackstones! And Doctor Quack Quack!
11. Natatandaan mo pa panaginip mo kagabi?
YES. It was like a continuation of my past dreams again! I was in this field, and I was walking barefoot in the mud! Then it was like semi-dark already. Oh, and I remember seeing the guy from Even Stevens! Haha. And they were running away from this old man in a hut. May motorcycle chase scene pa nga eh. Lol.
12. Natatandaan mo pa pangalan ng pinakauna
niyong family pet? Ano yun?
Uhh. According to the rusty part of my brain’s memory department, we used to have a dog. And his name was. . . uh, asa pang maalala ko. Lol.
13. Kung magiging cast ka ng isang
show/teleserye/anime?
Teleserye. Sa Krystala. Wahaha. Jk. =P
14. Ang girl physically attractive kapag..
maganda yung face. Not just mestiza or chinita. I find morenas prettier. ;)
15. Ang guy physically attractive kapag..
maganda ang eyes, smile and hair. Oh, and if you have this “angas” look pero mabait ka talaga. Hehe. =P
16. Favorite line from a song, movie or poem?
You’re falling in love, temporary madness rules your heart, cupid’s arrow cuts right through you, sentimental fool, thats who you are.
17. Anong masasabi mo sa huling movie na
napanood mo?
Uhh, Gigli? Haha. It sucked!!
18. Sino ang tao na gusto mo makilala? and why?
Alicia Keys. Alanis Morisette. Maya Angelou. Kitchie Nadal. Tom Welling. Haha. And a whole lot more.
19. Saan mo gusto magpunta sa oras na ito? And
why?
Sa school. Weird. To see my friends.;)
20. Kung may isang bagay kang sasabihin sa
sarili mo, ano yun?
Ang ganda mo! Ahahaha. Uhh, I love you? =P
21. Ano name mo?
Nikki nga.
22. Bakit yun ang name mo?
Ewan ko. My parents coined it? From DomiNIque? I like my name. Not too girly. Just right. Hehe.
23. Ano ang height mo?
5”21/2
24. Kontento ka na ba sa height na iyon?
Noooooo!
25. Gago ka bang tao?
Hmm, no. Minsan siguro. Hehe.
26. Nagmahal ka na ba?
Yes. But LOVE love? I dunno.
27. Madaming beses na ba?
I have no idea.
28. Anong feeling?
Blissful while it lasted. After it, you feel this twitch inside you, but at the same time, you feel stronger. ;)
29. May nakaaway ka na ba?
Uhh, yes.
30. May alam ka bang taong galit sa iyo?
31. Ano nararamdaman mo ngayon?
Im boooooored. Saka tinatamad.
32. Bakit?
Kasi walang magawa. And I have no drive to do anything. Help. Lol.
33. Ano kind of music gusto mo?
OPM rock/alternative, r&b, uuhh, lite rock? I don’t know how to classify the music I like. Hehe. Pop.
HS pa lang.
35. May kapatid ka ba?
Yes. Ive got 3.
36. Panganay ka o bunso?
Panganay.
37. Masayahin ka bang tao?
Uh huh. =D
38. Ano ginagawa mo ngayon?
Typing, breathing, living, and taking a bite off this bread. Lol.
39. Bakit mo ito sinasagutan?
Kasi wala akong magawa. And so I can post something on my blog. Hehe.
40. Ano balak mo gawin sa summer?
I have no idea. I want to go out more! Beach!
41. Kung mabubuhay ka ulit ano gusto mo?
Id sleep more!
Movies I kinda watched this weekend:
Last Friday, this Superman movie was on HBO.
Id have to admit that Christopher Reeves is hotter than Tom Welling. Lol.
Just the mere structure of his face embodies how I imagines Superman to be.
Though his voice was rather unsuperhero-like, his body that fit the costume really well pulled it off.
The effects, the villains, and the story line was mediocre compared to the Smallville of now.
But nonetheless, IT IS a Superman movie, and guess I have no right to contend its classical-ity. Hehe.
Last night, I watched the latter part of the movie GIGLI.
The one that starred Ben & Jen. Hehe.
Ben Affleck was drop-dead gorgeous as always, and so was J.Lo.
But the movie sucked!
No wonder it was a flop.
There was this scene where I think they were supposed to do IT, if you know what I mean.
J.Lo kissed Ben and then she lied down and said something like:
Jen: HEREs THE
Ben: =pause= What?
Jen: GOBBLE GOBBLE =with seductive look=
LOL.
How pathetic can that be?
Gobble gobble?
Wahaha.
And J.Lo was supposed to be a lesbian there I think.
So there was this scene where Ben & Jen were supposed to mail this torn off finger.
Yes. Dead a dead frozen fnger.
And then the girl at the mailing counter had this annoyingly naughty look.
And she wasnt directing this look to Ben.
The LOOK was for JEN!
Ahaha.
Yuck. Why am I using the words BEN & JEN.
Feeling close ako. Lol.
So anyway,
When Ben asked Jen who the girl in the counter was, she said something like:
Jen: A close, personal friend. =with THE LOOK=
Haha.
Kadiri.
I hated the movie.
I watched it just for the sake of killing time.
Hehe.
After it ended, I instantly turned off the TV and just texted away. =D
Oh, and I cut myself with the nailcutter too.
I have this wound on my left thumb.
As if you care. . .
Lol.
I have to work on my English journals now.
I cant seem to gather my thoughts properly when I write directly on paper.
My thoughts seem to run faster than my hand.
I write better when I type it.
Oh well.
Ive got to reflect more about:
CHOCNUT.
The color PURPLE.
My muse: MAYA angelou. Shes a famous poetess and writer.
The person who greatly influenced me: chad Michael murray. Lol. I mean, my mom. =D
And the prayer or meditation thing. Im gonna post the one I made some time.
I realized that I should write more about God, coz whenever I do, I feel this satisfaction in my work. Hehe.
OH.
Just in case you need to ponder on things, read this:
WASTED? SO IS YOUR LIFE.
Saturday, January 22, 2005
| Your Porn Star Name is: Albino Kitty |
| Your Stripper Name is: Red |
| To pick up Nikki Librada: Am I dead Angel? Cause this must be heaven! |
Your Boobies' Names Are: Bert and Ernie
IM PREGNANT.
Well, I was.
In my dream last night. Hehe.
Ive been having really weird dreams for the past few days. And the one last night was a stand-out.
It seemed sooooooo real to me. I swear.
I can still picture some of the dream-scenes in my head right now.
Hmm. . . Lemme see if I can still remember more about it.
Well, I can basically recall a few things.
First, I was lying inside this tree, with figs and leaves acting as my cushion. I was with someone and it was really dark inside the tree and we were liked trapped by the big, tangled roots I think. Haha.
And then, a white rabbit, or was it a cat, oh wait, I think it was a squirrel. Basta, some fuzzy little animal came running to me, and then the next thing I remember after that was the scene where I was checkin my body in front of a mirror.
And yes, I WAS PREGNANT! My tummy was bulging. Not the fatty-bulge, but the baby-inside-my-tummy-bulge!
Oh man, I get the creeps just having to think about it. Haha.
And I also remember thinking =What if everyone notices that Im pregnant on prom night? My dress will be hugging my body, so theyll notice! No! I better tuck my tummy in, like this!= *tucks tummy* =There you go!=
Lol.
And then, there was this scene where this guy, or girl, basta, may person, who I think was familiar to me, though I cant exactly remember who, but he had this brown Nike shoebox filled with circuit boards! The one we made for THE! Haha.
He was threatening my family and I. He was shouting and the circuit boards were supposedly BOMBS that he was supposed to set off to kill us all. Or something like that. Lol.
And so, I, in my pink or red maternity dress, came to the rescue! I remember having pinned him at his neck, so I was like on top of him. Note: Remove the greenness in your heads please. Lol. And we were like wrestling each other. Then I remember grabbing the shoebox and chopping the circuit boards one by one. Ahahah.
Then, I asked my mom to grab hold of the criminal and then I rushed to the other room and grabbed the phone.
There was this scene where I was looking for the post-it with all the emergency numbers on it, while caressing my baby-inhabited tummy. Lol.
Basta the whole dream was soooooooo weird.
And the funny thing about it was that, Ive had dreams before that I was pregnant too!
So this dream was like a sequel to all the other dreams! And my tummy got bigger each time! Lol.
Weird.
So so weird.
I searched google for a DREAM DICTIONARY, and when I typed the word PREGNANT, this was what I found:
Dreaming that you are pregnant, symbolizes an aspect of yourself or some aspect of your personal life that is growing and developing. You may not be ready to talk about it or act on it. This may also represent the birth of a new idea, direction, project or goal. Dreaming that you are pregnant with the baby dying inside of you suggests that a project you had put a lot of effort into is falling apart and slowly deteriorating. Nothing works out the way you want it to. If you are pregnant and having this dream, then it represents your anxieties about the pregnancy. In the first trimester, your dreams usually consists of tiny creatures, fuzzy animals, flowers, fruit and water. In the second trimester, your dreams will reflect your anxiety about being a good mother and concerns about possible complications with the birth. Dreams of giving birth to a non-human baby are also common during this period of the pregnancy. Finally, in the third trimester, you will tend to dream about your own mother. For a man to dream that he got a girl pregnant, forewarns that his indiscriminate sexual activities may come back to haunt him.
If the dreamer is a woman and you dream you are pregnant then you will see a big increase in your income, but if you are unwed and sad you will experience losses. For a man to dream that he is the father of the child he is warned about indiscriminate sexual relations and one night stands.
When I typed the word BOMB. . .
Dreaming of a bomb means that you may be going through a potentially explosive and trying situation in your waking life. The bomb could represent repressed desires and unexpressed emotions that are likely to explode or burst if not dealt with soon. It could be something within yourself, such as the desire to explode with anger over an issue that's affecting you. Dreaming of a bomb threat, suggests that you are experiencing some inner anger and/or pressures which are on the verge of exploding into violence.
Ooooh. That explains a few things. :o
nothing appeared. Lol.
Wala lang.
What are dreams anyways?
In this case, I dont think the quote A DREAM IS A WISH YOUR HEART MAKES WHEN YOURE FAST ASLEEP, is applicable.
I dont want to be pregnant.
Well, not at this stage of life of mine.
I want to have kids someday.
But I dont think that SOMEDAY is anytime soond.
What about the bombs? the rabbits? the persons? the tree?
Haay.
Dreams.
:O
B A S I C Q U E S T I O N S
[my name is]: Nikkii
[in the morning i am]: ugly. I am welcomed by such an unpleasant sight whenever I face the mirror every morning. Lol.
[all i need]: I God, my family, and inspiration. =D
[love is]: GOD. And…my source of bliss? Lol.
[if i could see one person right now]: it would be my best friend, Ces.
[im afraid of]: the dark..& being alone!!
[i dream about]: him. Egypt & Africa. And practically my deepest and weirdest desires. Haha.
H A V E Y O U E V E R .
[been in love]: almost? But Im getting there. ;)
[cried when someone died]: *nods* Im a crybaby.
[drank alcohol]: nope.=D wine lang. . .so I guess that would make my answer a yes? Lol.
T H I S O R T H A T . .
[coke or pepsi]: POP COLA, ay hinde, MIRINDA pala. LOL. Jk. Coke ;)
flowers or candy]: ffffflooooooowwweers!
scruff or clean shaven]: it depends. as long as you look presentable.
[tall or short]: basta taller than me. =P
W I T H T H E O P P O S I T E S E X . . . . .
[what do u notice first?]: eyes, smile, then hair.
[makes u laugh the most?]: Jan, Pao, Poch, IC and
[makes you smile]: sweetness? Knowing that they care and think of you. =P
[gives u a funny feeling]: huh? Uhh..someone. Lol.
[has a crush on u?]: si Tom Welling. AHAHA. Dunnow. You tell me..
[easier to talk to: boys or girls?]: BOYS. Its kinda weird actually, coz I tend to be closer to guys. My guy friends know more about me than my barkada.
D O Y O U E V E R . .
sit on the internet all day waiting for someone special to be OL?]: SOMETIMES. Ahahah. Buking. =P
saved ym/aim conversations]: YES. Some of them, I used to even copy-paste and save in a word file. Haha.
H A V E Y O U E V E R
[fallen for
[busted someone] : uh huh. =/
[done something u regret]: YES! Thats an Arian trait. I always regret stuff. =O
WH O W A S T H E L A S T P E R S O N
[u talked to]: my grade 7 brother. Pinaalis ko sya sa harap ng PC in an ate-like manner. Harhar.
[hugged]: Hmm..si IC? Semi-hugged him during our YFC club meeting. Haha.
[u instant messaged]:
[u laughed with]: Danielle! And my mom.
D O Y O U
[color
[ever booted off in the chatroom]: Not anymore. Gone are the MIRC days.
Q U E S T I O N S
[could u live without the computer?]: I think I can. The Egyptians were able to, so why cant I? Lol.
[how many peeps are on
W H A T I S / A R E
[what's your favorite food?]: Chocolate. . . TSOKNAT! =D
[what's
[like watching sunrises or sunset]: both. =D
[what hurts the most?]: being used. =O and being unappreciated. =(
[trust others way too easily?]: YES. And unfortunately, that had put me in very critical situations in the past.
[want]: to learn how to drive!! And to watch more movies.
[wish]: World peace. Really. =O
[miss]: by friends Ces, Jo, and Debbie!
[hear]: the TV from the other room, and the workers shoveling sand in the house opposite ours. Hehe.
[how do u know its love?]: when you canT explain WHY. And when you catch yourself thinking about him 24/7.
N A M E N A M E S :
[crush]: MARK, MICHAEL, & TOM. Haha. Go figure. =P
[love] : God. My family. My friends. Wag nang names. Haha.
[bestfriend/s] : Ces, Danielle, Jana, Carlo, my whole barkada.
[hate] : this noisy sophomore girl. Camacho ba yun? Lol.
[enemy]: none. =D or do I? =O
wishing to like you]: huh? Uhh, anyone? Hehe.
[want to meet]: Alicia Keys, Alanis Morisette, Usher, Maya Angelou, and Oprah.
want to be with everytime]: my friends! My family! And someone. =D
[want to hug]: my baby cousins! I miss ‘em. =p
I slept really early yesterday.
“Krystala” pa lang ata nakatulog nako. Lol.
I loved the weather last night. It was chilly. And that’s probably why I fell right to sleep.
More simple joys:
=cold nights
=sleeping early and getting lots of sleep
=knowing that your favorite artist is nominated for an award
=seeing yourself on tv or reading your own work on some newspaper/magazine
=watching a good movie. . .
=. . . with good friends
= hearing “chichi” from your kabarkada
= knowing that someones not sick anymore
= milo. . . my energy drink. . . cold or hot
= staring at the big tree outside our house. . . the red flowers are just soothing to the eyes
= flowers
= being the first to remember something
= arriving at the canteen and seeing that youve been dismissed early
= watching old movies
= laughing at old Filipino movies, seeing how lame the script, effects, and the actors were
= receiving credits for free. Lol
= seeing my celeb crush dance on tv
= seeing someone dance really well
= hearing someone sing for you with guitar accompaniment. =P lol
= being called for recitations. That’s if you were raising your hand
= hearing success stories
= balloons. Ive always wanted balloons ever since I was a little girl, but ive never received any in my entire life.. . .except in birthday parties. Ahaha.
= birthday parties
= having someone say NO to their vices, and hearing them say that the reason behind what they did was you
= having influenced someone to pass by the chapel every morning ;)
= reading the newspaper and actually reading about something GOOD
= surviving a day
= having dinner with your whole familiy
= oil price decrease. Lol
= buying from supermarkets
= buying a new car
= airconditioned rooms
= the smell of perfume on guys
= going on mini-adventures
= watching discovery kids
= biking. . . though I havent ridden my bike for years now
= swimming in your swimsuit and realizing that youre not that fat after all. Haha.
= bonding with your barkada
= hearing your friendS advice
= knowing that your friends care for you
= knowing that you made someone jealous. Lol. Or rather knowing that someone got jealous of someone else and youre the reason behind it. Something like that. Hehe
= being accompanied to gate 5 with Danielle. Rofl.
= being allowed to go out of gate 5 without having to wrestle the grumpy guards there
= free time!
= laughing at someones joke
= giggling whenever you realize that someones playfully flirting with you. Hehe
= being the best at something
= knowing that your parents are proud of you
= smiling. . . and hearing someone say that your smile brightened up his or her day
= comforting a friend in the girls bathroom while she cries
= tears of joy
= the colors light blue/turquoise, purple, white, red and light green
= being a lasallian
= seeing that you looked pretty in a picture.
= having someone agree that you indeed looked pretty. Ahaha.
= fitting clothes on
= knowing that your waistline has been the same for the past so-so years
= sweating and burning calories
= watching a friendS game
= witnessing someoneS victory
= hugs
= candlelit rooms
= hearing everyone sing the same song
= persevearing people
= peace
= Alanis Morisette songs
= OPM
= watching the premiere of new shows/music videos
= watching American Idol
= hearing someone sing really well
= cookies and brownies
= homemade treats
= having someone cook for you
= having cooked a good meal
= receiving quotes
= typing the code in TurboC++ without errors. Lol
= hearing Sir CortelS jokes
= watchimg my classmateS presentations
= knowing that some people read my blog, hihi.
= knowing that a friendS lovelife is blooming. Kilig. =D
= watching Will & Grace
= SMALLVILLE
= watching The SImpsons
= arriving home early
= having someone text you late at night or early in the morning coz that makes you think that its you they think of before they go to sleep and as soon as they wake up =P
I was watching MTV yesterday, and they have this new segment/show.
Its entitled HARANA.
Its hosted by KC Concepcion
And I bet youll never guess what ths show is about. Lol.
In the episode? that I watched, this guy asked for Southborder to make harana his girlfriend
And so that was exactly what happened
They were invited to this bar I think
And Southborder played Rainbow just for the girl.
The girlfriend was so touched and the guy even cried.
Alam ko ang labo ko magkwento, hehe, but thats basically how the show goes.
So to the guys out there who havent thought of anything for Valentines Day yet, then maybe you could make that an option.
And that last statement especially goes out to a friend of mine, who until now, has not asked HER about IT again. Lol. =P
*Wishin' and hopin' and Thinkin' and prayin' Plannin' and dreamin' His kisses will start That won't get you into his heart So if you're thinkin' Of how great true love is All you gotta do isHold him, and kiss him And squeeze him and love him Just do it And after you do You will be his ("Wishin' and hopin'" - Ani Difranco)
Friday, January 21, 2005
Can I just say that I AM SO MISERABLE.
Rico blancoooo! =((
Its at a time like this one when the reality of my being a loser slaps me right on my face.
Today would have been a perfect day, If I only had the heart to go to that concert.
I probably would have been allowed to go. I think.
But for some ANNOYINGLY-UNKNOWN reason, I decided not to have tickets bought. Weird huh?
Youd probably think, “Ang weird naman nito!”
Thank you. Id take that as a compliment. Lol.
I dunnow. Something just really stopped me from going to the concert of my dreams.
I actually have this theory in my head. The reason behind that decision would be better left unsaid and untold ?
Argh.
I hate being such a “good friend”. Ive always acknowledged other peoples feelings, and have always ignored my own desire to be happy.
Does that make me more of a loser?
I guess so.
How sad. Ö
Currently playing: Mata by Mojofly
Its true what they say. That the eyes are the windows to one’s soul, or something like that.
Whenever I see SOMEONE look at me, I feel like hes talking straight to me.
It’s a weird feeling. Even freaky at times.
But the eyes can really tell a lot.
I know that the girls would agree with me here.
Coz guys, don’t think that the girls you like are always clueless.
You may not have exactly professed your UNDYING LOVE/LIKE/INFATUATION for them, but believe me, we girls get very suspicious at times. Were sensitive to stuff like that.
Especially THE LOOK.
Hmmm
Maybe that’s why Ive been attracted to a lot of chinito guys.
Coz they DON’T HAVE EYES in the first place. Ahaha.
If ever they do, theyd look like one of those drawings my brother used to draw.
His drawings of those cute little stick people included a pair of horizontal lines on the face, which according to him, were the eyes. Lol.
My crushes have all either been chinito or big-eyed. =))
They didn’t have BIG eyes, but they had really expressive eyes.
Oh, and whenever Im asked the overused question: What s/Who s
Id have a ready answer.
Chinitong Moreno.
Ahaha.
The small eyes and the sexy complexion make them sort of mysterious. ?
Ahahahhahaha.
Okay. Enough crap. =P
Anyway, I better stop being so pathetic now or else Ill end up sounding like this guy I know.
This guy has been a really good friend. Or rather, WAS a good friend.
Was- coz we dont get to talk anymore.
He did something really STUPID.
Nagpakagago na rin sya.
And it freakin pisses me off.
I get pissed whenever I see people do STUPID things just to look COOL or feel GOOD.
Why would a guy do something really b-a-d, something that could end his life, something so painfully ignorant, something so STUPID to himself?
Argh.
I heard the information from a really reliable source. And when I saw him, my gut-feeling triggered my pissed-mode.
Haay.
Whoever you are, please don’t ruin your life. Don’t be such a waste. Magpakatino ka. Wag ka magpakagago.
Youre my friend and I dont want you to act stupid. You’ve always been stupid. You know that. But please, don’t do this to yourself.
Or else, id be the first person to drag you away from whatever rut youre in now.
Ang seryoso pala ng mga pinagsasasabi ko. Haha.
Okay, back to my steady-mode.
Updates:
4 days before the campus tour –
Coming up:
our retreat – gotta start making retreat letters. Retreat letter ko pala people ha!! Hehe. Feb 9-10 ata. =P
our outreach – hassle. Feb 11 ba naman. The day before. . .
THE PROM – no comment. Ahaha. Im dateless. Im not supposed to use the term STAG, coz it really is supposed to be used for guys who go to parties or gatherings unaccompied. But nonetheless, im still dateless, which is super fine with me. May 8 or 9 dances nako. Ahaha. Okay nay un. But I need more, coz I dont to end up being left in our table kasi halos lahat sa barkada ko may dates. Harhar. Yun lang. =P
In around 2 hours, other people will witness the greatness of Kitchie Nadal and Rivermaya.
And I wont.
Everyones out. Everyone else has a gimik. Everyone else is somewhere else.
And Im not.
And thats what im currently doing right now as well. Ö
Oh I know, Ill listen to the cds my bud gave me. Smallville OST! Woohoo.
Okay. That thought made me feel better.
=D
Thursday, January 20, 2005
Just got home.
I was absorbed by the tv a while ago. Guess what was on? Baby Looney Tunes!
Oh wait. Is it looney TUNES or TOONS? Diba toons? Haha. Either way, they’re still cute. :P
Among all of them, I like Taz the best.
At first, I only liked him coz “he” liked him too. (Please don’t ask me who “he” is :P) It was like, if I was “supergurl”, he was “taz”. But after things got ugly between us, I hated that spinning-devil. Lol.
Remember our old fair shirt? The one with Taz on the back? Bad luck, right?
Well, I guess the “Taz in my life” brought a whole truck of bad luck too. :O
Wala lang. Naalala ko lang. “He” is sooo old news already.
But the other night, I was surprised when “he” texted me!
I was working on our exhibit board thingy for our DP at around 1 in the morning [twas hellish I tell you, my whole body hurt after cutting all those pieces of metallic paper…they kept on coiling/rolling! Argh! Hehe, anyway], then out of nowhere, I received this text. I thought it was from someone else, since I was texting other people as well that night. But then, when I saw his name on my phone, I almost dropped to the floor.
I didn’t expect him to even bother to check up on me anymore. Nangamusta lang sya and stuff.
It was really weird. After having gone through all sorts of things with him, I still had this feeling of awkwardness [is there such a word?] towards him.
Owel, enough about him. I don’t care about him anymore. Lol.
I might have used to make him my world, but now, I refuse to even make him part of my dreams.
He may have a life of his own now too, but I don’t care, it was loss, not mine.
[woohoo, I don’t sound martyr-ish anymore, I can fight back now, haha, well I guess I owe that to him as well. He taught me how to be hurt, and learn things after the fall. I have him to thank for that]
The “MATH HENYO” contest thing was fun kanina. Even though I didn’t exactly see how henyo-ish the games were, masaya pa rin. Buti na lang di ako natawag, coz if my class number was called to be a contestant, Id probably rush to the clinic or cr right away. Hehe. Bobo pa naman ako sa mga ganon. Im very prone to mental blocks, and its in contests like that that my disability to think properly in my head is susceptible to mass mockery. Haha. Ang kulit din ng section A. Puro “ABE, ABE, ABE” lol. Pati yung mga stands na may letters ng sections pinagtripan.
I love my batch. It’s such a jungle whenever we’re all gathered together. We’re composed of bunches of people with different identities and personas. May mga gago, mga tahimik, mga kupal, mga mababait, mga maingay, may mga walang pakialam, may masasaya, may mga hirit ng hirit, may mga patawa-tawa lang, may mga maarte, may mga walang ginawa kundi kumanta, may mga aliens, may mga matataba, meron ding sobrang payat, may mga gwapo, merong mga di-masyadong-gwapo, may mga matatalino, may mga matitino, may mga masarap kasama, meron ding yung masasarap tadyakan, merong mga pwedeng maging crush, merong mga sweet, may mga lagging high, atbp. You get the picture. Hehe.
Anyway, to YOU who saw me in my bus kanina while we were passing by madrigal ave., natawa ako when I received your message. Hehe. I must have looked stupid or ignorant or whatever while I was sitting in front of our almost-disfunctional-bus. :P
Oh, and to those whom we (Danielle and I) left kanina sa gate 5, SORRRY! :o Our buses had to go na pala eh, hehe. Pinalabas nyo pa tuloy yung car nyo. Saka my intuition proved me right, you guys were the ones riding in the gray car. Hehe. Sorry di ko agad nasabi na aalis na kami kasi wala akong credits. :( And yea, I did see your car by your house. Kala ko nga nasa loob kayo ng car eh, yun pala pumasok na kayo. Hehe.
Okay, I better stop directing my paragraphs to these people Im talking about here.
And sorry to those who texted me. As I said, wala akong credits!!!
I wasn’t able to buy kasi di naman ako lumalabas ng bahay. Hehe. Tapos wala pang mautusan. Yun lang. :P
I wont be chatting today either. I haven’t been doing my homeworks at HOME for the past week either.
I haven’t been studying for tests also. If I keep this up, I’ll end up losing the Top7 slot. [nax, nagyabang daw. Haha. Jk. :P]
Anyway, that would be all. I better stop wasting my time and start doing something productive.
No one reads my blog anyway. Harhar.
Whoever you are who’s reading this right now, I command you to post a message on the tagboard located at the right side of this webpage. Lol. Please? Make me happy and post anything. :D
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