Thursday, June 30, 2005
Wednesday, June 29, 2005
Stupendously crazy all over again.
Its amazing how after all these months/years of being physically apart, we still managed to laugh our heads off at our inside jokes, our gossipping, our (their actually) amusing kilig kwentos, and most of all, ourselves.
Our interesting blather consisted of a number of bingi moments (just like the old days, but the drums and the loud plummeting of raindrops made our conditions even worse) and the atypical omg-you-have-a-boyfriend?! scenarios.
Made me wish all eleven of us were together again. And by together, I mean the very sense of the word.
Its funny how all the misplaced links in our friendships and disoriented connections with one another seem to make up an essential part of who we are as a barkada. Its virtuosos like us who manage to keep up with all the tittle-tattles and the pesky stereotypical stares-slash-perceptions. Its pretty odd how after all these years of being classmates, those recess and lunch breaks, those stressful groupworks and projects, those gimiks and bonding moments, and those heartbreaks and times of exhiliration, we still occasionally get discreet awkward instances, look all flushed when we get embarassed, snort and choke at those barkada-bra-and-panty conversations, and cry and laugh our young, innocent hearts out. Its also touching how these Homo sapiens sapiens with whom I have shared tons of Oops moments with still stand up for me, believe me, trust me, and safeguard me, no matter what. And its just as moving to witness a group of girls (and a couple of guys) shriek and scream at the sight of a badly-missed friend.
There's a lot more to it, a whole lot more. But words displayed on a computer monitor in vivid mode isnt at all enough to grasp the totality of our "cool and tigas" amity.
Its extraordinary. Its funny. Its superb. Its weird. Sometimes thwarting and tricky.
But above all, its friendship...something I'll carry with me to my grave. =)
From the bottom of my now-revived heart, thank you guys! ;)
(We havent exactly decided on what to call our barkada yet, so for now, "guys" should do it)
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Ive been meaning to write about my Oops moments for the past few weeks, but because of the regular scheduling of quizzes and homeworks and other senior-year-induced activities, I have always ended up snoozing off to dreamland before I could even start reliving my stupidity.
But alas, all that foolhardiness has taken its toll on me. So to give off some of my good vibes, let me blab about some of it. =)
Strike 1: The oh-no mix-up.
Strike 2: Get this: I was the prayer leader for a day last week. That calendar day started as it had been for the past 2 weeks(?). Our class ended up facing a taray-look from our misunderstood adviser (yet again) and after the inconsequential morning ceremony, we all entered our classroom and I, being the monitor for the day, headed for the teacher's table to grab hold of the small piece of paper with the morning prayer in it. Its SOP to read what's written, so that's exactly what I did (with feelings pa, mind you).
Here comes the good part:
After the "Live Jesus in our hearts...forever. In the name of the father, of the son, and of the holy spirit. Amen" I heard Ms. Natividad utter "Okay class, remain standing" AND THEN I, on the other hand, absent-mindedly started SINGING.
"Bayaaang Magiliiiw...Handa..."
My thoughts during that moment: OMFG = oh mai freakin' gulay! what am I doing!?!?!
"...ay, sorry"
and then I flash this -> =D and walk back to my seat while laughing with my whole class. (take note: WITH them, haha)
The teasing of Kryon and Retsel and all the other people didnt help one bit, but nonetheless, I actually had fun laughing at myself.
Ms Natividad: "Nakakatawa ba? What are you laughing at? "
My thoughts: "At myself miss. And yes, it was hilariously funny."
bwahaha. I lurve it. ;)
Strike 3: I was on the verge of literally falling off my queen-sized bed. At 1:00 in the morning. With no one else in my room. And it was raining. (It was rather freaky actually)
Strike 4: You know that computer chair, with wheels at the bottom? The one you can adjust so it goes up and down like that? (obviously, I suck at describing things) Basta the kind of computer chair that Jan and Pao used to roam the computer room with. Ayun.
Well, I fell off from this computer chair Im sitting on right now for like, 5 times already. All within a span of 1 week. As in, I rest my head on my bed while my bottom’s still on the unstable chair. Before I know it, I’d be off balance and fall flat on my ass. Haha. Kanina nahulog ulit ako, tumama pa ulo ko sa cabinet. Imagine nyo na lang itsura ko Lol.
Strike 5: I almost stepped on a dirty cockroach in one of the stalls in the boys’ shower room by the swimming pool (good thing I had slippers on)
Strike 6: . . . and I forgot to bring my deo that day.
I cant remember the other things that happened to me though (whats new), but Im sure theres a lot more to come. =)
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Tuesday, June 28, 2005
i know you've probably read this somewhere else already but....
One night a guy and a girl were driving home from the movies. The boy sensed there was something wrong because of the painful silence they shared between them that night. The girl then asked the boy to pull over because she wanted to talk. She told him that her feelings had changed, and that it was time to move on. A silent tear slid down his cheek as he slowly reached into his pocket and passed her a folded note. At that moment, a drunk driver was speeding down that very same street. He swerved right into the drivers seat, killing the boy. Miraculously, the girl survived. Remembering the note, she pulled it out and read it. "Without your love, I would die.
"PUT THIS IN YOUR JOURNAL IF YOU CARE ABOUT SOMEONE SO MUCH THAT YOU CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT THEM. (even your best friends)
Monday, June 27, 2005
Sunday, June 26, 2005
Saturday, June 25, 2005
Thursday, June 23, 2005
Tuesday, June 21, 2005
Saturday, June 18, 2005
Wednesday, June 15, 2005
Monday, June 13, 2005
got this from [maica]
Things you enjoy, even when no one around you wants to go out and play. What lowers your stress/blood pressure/anxiety level? Make a list, post it to your journal... and then tag 5 friends and ask them to post it to theirs.
1. Staying in my room, staring at the ceiling (which I can only do when Im at the edge of my mattress because of, like my cousin put it, my bed’s 2nd floor) with raindrops in the background, while brooding over the meaning of life (and everything else).
2. Reading my friends’ and other people’s online journals. Reading articles from Peyups.com.
3. Being massaged or tickled. Taking a long shower. Swaying in our duyan under the trees with the wind in my face.
4. Eating! Sweets. Fruits. Spicy food.
5. Writing poetry. Writing an entry here or in my diary. Doodling. Drawing. Scribbling.
6. The color green. Or white. Landscapes. Gardens. Bodies of Water. The sky. The sky at night. Stars. Flowers.
7. Playing the piano. Listening to someone play the guitar. Hearing someone sing.
8. Listening to songs of yesteryears AND singing to them (which causes stress to other people, hehe).
9. Receiving quotes, text messages, offline messages, friend requests, etc. (haha)
10. Getting lots and lots of sleep. Having dreams (not the scary, weird ones but the fantasy-filled, close-to-reality, magical ones)
passing it on to
-anyone ;)
You really do learn things in school.
"What happens to water when it freezes?"
I always thought that all compounds are denser when theyre in their solid state than when in their liquid form.
But it was only Sir Ezrels first portfolio homework that made me realize the pseudo-analysis Ive long believed wasnt true for every instance. The answer was staring me right in the face since forever (ice floats on water, thus its less dense. duh) but I was too lost in the notion Ive always deemed.
No, I will not go on talking about our first science experiment.
I was just intrigued by how I corrected myself.
By how I had the answer to something all the while, but failed to actually see it.
I remember my brother asking me, "Ate, how big is the universe?"
All I could answer was, "Sobrang laki. Its larger than life. It goes on infinitely. Basta...ganon."
Lol.
I mean, my unused stock knowledge tells me that we can never really get "outside" space because your path will just always curve around and so it leads you back to where you started.
Thats its nature. It curves around on itself, so just as it is possible to fly around the earth indefinitely without leaving it, you could also travel out in space for as long as you wished - but NEVER outside it.
Hmm
That explanation sure sounds familiar to me.
Im sure we all have things weve all tried to run over, but still end up falling flat on our behinds no matter how far we try to run.
Weve all tried to conquer something at one time or another, yet fail to actually reach the top coz you eventually lost your grip.
Whether it be that conduct grade youve been trying to change to that whopping-ly astounding A, or that girl you've been pursuing AND trying to get over for the past few months, they all still count as the things youve always tried to perfect, but ended up spoiling anyway.
You try to step outside the circle, but end up inside anyway, no matter how hard you try. But should that really stop you from trying? The cycle may go on forever and that probably makes you think you'll never escape it. *Sigh*
Outer space may go on infinitely till eternity, but I sure hope I can deal with my own unending loop of misfortunes and fortuity.
I hope you do too…
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Pag-ibig Ko Sa'yo (by Moonstar 88)
Bakit ganito ang pakiramdam
Umiibig na nga ba ako sayo
Kahit alam ko iba na ang mahal mo
Umaasa pa rin ako sayo
Pag-ibig ko sayo’y hindi magbabago
Buhay kong ito’y ibibigay sa’yo
Kahit siya ang nasa isip mo
Di mo ba nakita ang mga ginagawa
Lahat ito ay para lang sayo
Di mo ba pansin ang aking damdamin
Mahirap ba itong intindihin
Sayo ako’y maghihintay
Hinding hindi magsasawa
Lagi akong magmamahal…sayo…
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-[-I mesmerized you for all the wrong reasons-]
Sunday, June 12, 2005
[A Survey]
got this from channe
Three Names I Go By
1. nikki
2. nix
3. monique? nixter? dominique? kikay? haha.
Three Screen Names You Have Had
1. sUp3rgUrL
2. supergurl_nix18
3. lois lane (lol)
THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. my kind of "beauty" (im not mestiza/chinita. im "exotic" daw. wtf.lol)
2. my discipline. no vices. (nax!)
3. my rare ability to just "understand" and not get mad, no matter what happens
THREE THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. my rare ability to just "understand" and not get mad, no matter what happens
2. Apathy/Laziness
3. sucky memory + inability to even deliver a joke or kwento
Three Parts of Your Heritage
1. Filipino
2. Spanish
3. Venezuelan/Puerto Rican/Portuguese
Three Things That Scare You
1. death/loss/hurt
2. the dark + mumu!
3. thunder & lightning. :/
Three of Your Everyday Essentials (aside from the obvious):
1. lip balm
2. earrings (i feel naked without 'em!)
3. cellphone + my "online journal" + my diary :)
Three of Your Favorite Bands / Musical Artists
1. alicia keys
2. eraserheads tied with rivermaya AND hale AND sponge cola AND keane :D
3. kitchie nadal
Three of Your Favorite Songs
1. with a smile - eraserheads
2. kailan - mymp / same ground - kitchie nadal
3. crazy for you - sponge cola
THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
1. to commute!
2. to DRIVE!
3. to play the guitar
Three Things You Want In a Relationship
1. HONESTY
2. laughs...lots and lots of it. :)
3. contentment & security & loyalty
Two Truths And a Lie
1. i love Moniegold chewy tamarind candy more than i do chocnut
2. i know how to play the piano
3. i can (do a) cartwheel and split
Three Physical Things About the Opposite Sex That Appeal to You
1. eyes
2. smile
3. hair + built + voice
THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO (in front of people):
1. do stand-up comedy
2. puke (lol)
3. dance "spaghetti" or "ocho ocho"
Three of Your Favorite Hobbies
1. writing
2. singing? hehe.
3. um, dancing.
THREE CRUSHES (past and present):
1. Yeah..
2. Nice..
3. try...
Three Things You Want to Do Badly Right Now
1. take a shower (its so hot!)
2. eat a slice of blueberry cheesecake
3. dance! (lose mass! haha.)
Three Careers You're Considering
1. advertising
2. business
3. uh, accounting?
Three Places You Want To Go On Vacation
1. hawaii
2. africa
3. the ruins of machu picchu
Three Kid's Names You Like
1. nicole
2. sophia/pia/cheska
3. ryan or lee or nathan
Three Things You Want To Do Before You Die
1. have my own book published
2. be someone's miracle :)
3. meet oprah or the Pope
Three Ways That You Are Stereotypically a Girl
1. I fancy hunky, gorgeous, long-haired, chinky-eyed guys (lol)
2. I cry at movies and im occasionally mushy. =P
3. I'm vain.
Three Celeb Crushes
1. Tom Welling *drools*
2. Chad Murray *drools*
3. Brent Javier *drools* lol.
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I had my hair cut. =O I look "nene" again. And the curls are gone. Whoops. Owel.
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Happy Independence Day! I still <3>
Happy Birthday Carl! ;)
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[-im missing you and me-]
Friday, June 10, 2005
Thursday, June 09, 2005
Pix from Awie's multiply! :)
Circle 96 the best! (the WHOLE circle, with Bea!) =P
teh beeyouutiful girls of 96! =P
JC outreach
by the bay. (I borrowed someone's cap, hehe) sino yang putol sa right?
(not my best pic but...) moi, danielle, jana. haha. ;)
Wednesday, June 08, 2005
Tembtation : Bakit Napapagod Ang Puso?
By tembarom
From peyups.com (I highly recommend this site. I made a vow that one day, I'd have my own articles posted on it, hehe)
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Sa mga nakalipas na buwan, ilang mga malalapit na mga kaibigang magkasintahan na rin ang narinig kong naghiwalay o nasa bingit ng paghihiwalay. Ang ipinagtataka ko, ang mga nagrereklamo ng pagkabagot o pagkawala ng kasiyahan sa kanilang ugnayan ay mga babae. Naisip ko tuloy, sa isang relasyon, dumarating ba ang panahon na kaming mga lalaki ay nagiging boring at nakakasawa?
Noong bago pa lang kami ng girlfriend ko, napag-usapan namin ang posibilidad ng pagdating ng panahong magmamaliw ang romance. ‘Yun bang tipong kung dati ay matae-tae ako sa paghihintay ng tawag niya, sa bandang huli’y magiging normal at bahagi na lang routine ang phone conversations. O ‘yung dating sipag at siguro’y excitement niyang kantahan ako ay mababawasan din.
May ifinorward pa nga siyang essay sa akin na isinulat ng isang ginang na nagbago na ng damdamin sa kanyang asawa. Sentimental ang babaeng nagsulat. Lagi raw siyang nag-i-expect ng mga romantic moments. Kabaligtaran naman daw ang kanyang asawa. Dahil nga sa pagkawala ng kilig, nais na iya itong i-diborsyo. Siyempre’y nagulat ang lalaki. Tinanong siya ng ng babae:
"Here is the question, if you can answer and convince my heart, I will change my mind, Let's say, I want a flower located on the face of a mountain cliff, and we both are sure that picking the flower will cause your death, will you do it for me?"
Madamdamin ang sagot ng lalaki. Hindi raw niya pipitasin ang bulaklak. Ito ang ilan sa mga dahilang binaggit niya:
“When you use the computer you always mess up the Software programs, and you cry in front of the screen, I have to save my fingers so that I can help to restore the programs...
“You always have the cramps whenever your ‘good friend’ approaches every month, I have to save my palms so that I can calm the cramps in your tummy.
“You like to stay indoors, and I worry that you will be infected by infantile autism. I have to save my mouth to tell you jokes and stories to cure your boredom.”
Na-touch naman ang babae at na-realize niyang sa kabila ng pakiramdam niya’y pagiging insensitibo ng asawa niya, sa kaloob-looban naman ay mahal na mahal siya ng lalaking pinakasalan niya.
Naalala ko tuloy 'yung isang text message: “Just because I don’t love you the way you want me to doesn’t mean I don’t love you” or something to that effect. Para bang ‘di man ako mag-text o tumawag maya’t maya, di naman ibig sabihin noon na hindi kita iniisip 99% ng panahon na gising ako. Bolero ba? Siyempre, hindi ko naman tinotolerate ang pagiging bolero o babaero ng mga kabaro ko. Kapag ganyan na ang usapin, ibang usapan na ’yan.
Pero paano nga ba maiiwasan ang pagkapagod ng puso, maliban sa pagsisikap na manatiling buhay ang romance? Naniniwala akong may mga mas matitibay na bagay na dapat gawing bahagi ng isang relasyon. Siyempre, given na ang pagmamahal. Unang-una ‘yan. Idagdag pa ang maraming cliché:
Honesty. Sabi nga ng isang kasabihan, ang pagsasabi ng tapat, ay pagsasamang maluwat. Pero totoo. Kung sa simula pa lang ay ilalatag na natin sa ating kapareha ang ating kaluluwa, maiiwasan ang ibang di pagkaka-unawaan. And speaking of di-pagkakaunawaan, dapat talaga may unawaan at bigayan. Sabi nga ni Bob Garon, “Healthy lovers enjoy giving as much as they do in receiving… Healthy lovers don’t try to change or control the beloved.” 'Di rin dapat mawala ang pagtitiwala. At siyempre, dapat ay ang Panginoon ang laging nasa gitna ng dalawa.
Hindi ko kung ano ang mga eksaktong nangyari, pero may hinala akong may nakaligtaang alinman sa mga iyan ang mga kaibigan kong magkasintahan kaya ng ilan sa kanila'y napagod.
Tuesday, June 07, 2005
Sunday, June 05, 2005
Saturday, June 04, 2005