Wednesday, May 31, 2006


profound prose
Unearthed
05.31.06

I used to wish I could fly
The classic dream to get away from reality’s realm
I am but a tiny part of the sky
Just like the world I am living in

I have been introduced to heaven
Only to take an unkind fall to the ground
To rupture the spell of earthen
Onto which my essence is bound

I am on a quest to find the lost city
Where my refuge was built on rare site
I shant be taken aback by the affinity
Of the dream I foresee every night
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Tuesday, May 30, 2006


of the pathetic and perfect
I seriously have to think twice before hitting that "Publish Post" button again. Whenever I come up with an entry, I just keep on typing whatever's in my head without even editing or re-reading what I just put. Because of that, I always end up either laughing or feeling pathetic for myself after I visit my own site and read the things in it.

I know Im such a loser for blogging every single day, but I am not as pathetic as Id like to think I am. Really. Hahaha.

Anyway, I know Ive been reiterating about how pathetic Im sounding here, but I just really have to share this.

I WAS 2 METERS AWAY FROM MARK HERRAS THE OTHER DAY! :D

I was having a perfectly bad day when he came in the same Pizza Hut we were eating in and sat by the table nearest ours. Oo na, jologs na kung jologs, haha! But hey, Chrissie and I found him cute even during his Starstruck days. He is, in fact, a dancer, has this bad boy image, and has an earring - what more can I ask for?! Er, okay, maybe brains and a whole lot more. But thats what those stars are for anyway right? To satisfy our eyes? Lol.

Speaking of stars, Ive been watching a lot of TV lately since Ive got nothing better to do anyway. And together with all those unnecessary rays from the television, Ive been absorbing a lot of thoughts and ideas too. Its amazing how all these models and celebrities get paid to look like a million bucks. Theyre beautiful for a living, and you have that to blame for the all the fuss theyre getting. And for a regular girl like me, Id like to think that those well-sculpted hottah hottah bodies and perfectly flawless faces are what I want to achieve. Sure, the very sight of them makes the boys' heads spin, but I learned from my guy friends that fabuloso high-profile girls arent what they necessarily need. While they still find it fun to fantasize and dream about having the perfect girl in their arms, they still prefer to end up with the girl who's perfect in her own way. Besides, it takes a lot more guts (and may i add, money and image) for guys to come up to that billboard-worthy mestiza than the simply-dressed chinita. Though the pressure is still on for regular girls to try to please the people around them, its still important to know that self-satisfaction is what they first need to achieve before anything else. A great personality from a real and genuine girl should do the trick if you want well-deserved attention. And if that isnt enough, Im sure that million megawatt smile will radiate your beauty and pop the eyes out of any beholder's head.
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arresting exposition
Many have described it a normal human emotion, but she begs to differ. If normal means having to walk through a door only to find empty stares and unspoken words hanging about the stale air, then she wouldnt even dare to think what beyond normal is.

She has not been marked by deprivation of social or physical necessities. Although she remains on a par with most of her peers, she has struggled to keep up with the balance of her life's many facades. She has withstood encounters with the best and the worst while trying to keep up with expectations put on her back. The thin diguise has had served its purpose well, but the gush of blatant confessions always blew her cover.

Evidently, the young girl knew much about what should and could be done with the people who came up to her. More or less, her silence was given and her presence was felt right when they were needed by another. And even though it all seemed to fit perfectly in the image that others painted of the girl, no one but her knew that a different story was concealed.

She has begged for the drama to be spared of all its monstrosity knowing that it would only make things worse. But holding back would only do just that. She was free from all the emotional progression during the day, when the sun continued to shine upon the girl who strived for perfection. But when everyone was gone, she would lie on her bed till dawn breaks and stare at her abstract hope for change.

It was all she wanted and needed. But when she finally got it, she could barely grasp the thought of what had hit her. Her decision to please her own perfections and evils pushed them away, and at the end, she was left with almost nothing. The fault was never hers, but somehow, she is still to be blamed.

The people closest to her never knew, when all the while, she badly wanted them to know. But they never did. And it was only a matter of time before she gave up and let go...
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Monday, May 29, 2006


on the great divide
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waiting for sooner or later
The big artwork on the wall seemed so big to me as I stared at how proportionally larger Don Bosco was than Jesus. Carefully made-up hair adorned with beads and tiaras hung about the bottom of my view as I mustered enough strength and willpower to keep my eyes open. The long and monotonous sermon wasnt helping my battle with the sluggish me so I repositioned my monoblock chair by the back wall of the chock-full Church to snap me back to reality. "God works in mysterious ways. You may not know what he plans now, but you will find out soon. Sooner or later, youll be living it," the priest uttered. My memory fails me often, but those words stuck to me like glue.

what we do is determined by fate.
to be or not to be my own hero is my question.
and i choose to be.
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Sunday, May 28, 2006


sabaw
03.27.06

You are my mercenary
The one who lurks within the grave
The eye behind my head
For whom this cradle has been made

You are my mastermind
The creator of the ephemeral plan
The brain behind the grid
For whom I offer both my hands

You are my confidant
THe sole keeper of my wrath
The bridge of broken roads
For whom I cross thy father's path

You are my superior
The hand that holds my very fate
The truth Ill never know
For whom forever cannot wait

***
"Is numbness a presence or an absence?" someone asked in the past.
"Is there a cure for numbness?"
Now I ask the same thing.
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Friday, May 26, 2006


A (pretty long) Birthday Message
Dear Bud,

Sorry for not being able to reply a while ago. You BUZZ!ed and, well, I was busy wrestling my brother out of the PC. You know how brothers are...

Anyway...you know, its funny how you still seem to be just there...just a message away. Whether we admit it or not, our friendship was practically founded on long midnight YM conversations and day-long text marathons. It took us years to actually be friends with one another despite the fact that we belonged to the same class for half of our Zobel lives. Maybe Mr. Fate decided to finally equalize our noob-ness by putting you, me, Rox, Jana, Danielle, and Macky together on that fine year we enjoyed each other's company. Id have to say that it was from that circle that I found the bestest friends I could ever find in a lifetime.

Saying that I learned a lot from you would be the understatement of the century. You taught me how to laugh at my mistakes, cry at my pains, and look at my life in a way I never did before I met you. You saw the goodness in me and pushed me to believe in myself. You saw my flaws and failings and pushed me harder to fight them. I learned to appreciate the majesty of your first love, that is football, and your first girlfriend, that is your PC. I learned that being emo is never wrong and that songs inspired by sentimentality always sound right when your heart is breaking with every beat. It was with you I first enjoyed staying up until the sun rises. It was with you I shared my most sabaw ideas and my deepest secrets with. It was you who understood when no one else did. It was you who knew me better than myself.

>> read the rest <<

Just dont forget me when you score your first goal there okay? Hope that soccer cd rack arrives safely. The next time I see you online, ready your mic so I can enjoy your accent again. Eat some Chocnut for me too. Good luck with you-know-who! *wink wink* And oh and say hi to Chris for me. :)

You may be miles away now, but never forget that I will always be here for you.
Youre definitely a friend worth keeping forever. :)

Love,
Nix :)


Wishing you more fun-filled, football-inspired, musically-accompanied, love-abundant, days!
Happy Birthday Cao! :)

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Wednesday, May 24, 2006


Firsts
1. 1st time you tried smoking:
summer of grade 6? i was trying to prove a point. one puff and i had to brush my teeth for a good 5 minutes or something.

2. 1st alcoholic drink you had:
red wine. i remember my titas offering tequila a many summers ago after i cried with my cousin by the beach. eow, drama. lol.

3. 1st time you entered a bar:
after prom last year. V Bar. First takas din ever. haha.

4. 1st award you received:
Most Outstanding (parang gold medalist) Junior Casa at Montessori.

5. 1st hero:
my mom. :)

6. 1st time you were sent to the principal for disciplinary actions:
not to the principal, but to Sir Laqui. i dont even exactly remember what happened anymore, but all i know is that it was because of ms matic. thimbles, and shears, and rulers! i even cried in front of her and sir laqui. that was lame..hahaha..
it says on my records that I got an Am for conduct though. if not for that incident, i wouldve gotten that big medal Marvin Medina got too during graduation. demn.
top 7 nga, papel lang naman nakuha. boo. haha.

7. 1st goal you accomplished:
to graduate with honors? to pass my college entrance exams? to compose songs?

8. 1st crush:
hmm..Tom Lasam. (peace tayo Awie!) Haha. Too bad he's leaving next week O:

9. 1st person whom you gave flowers:
my mom. :)

10.1st friend:
this girl named Jessa and Carlo.

11.1st dance:
Edison. :X

12.1st kiss:
real kiss? havent had mine yet. and yes, im already 18. how wonderful. hahaha...

13. 1st record you bought:
this Alanis Morissette cassette tape. Jagged Little Pill. i love that album.

14. first musical instrument you learned to play?
recorder! the old music rooms were on the top floor of the main building pa back then. i used to be the president of the recorder ensemble too. :D lol.

15. 1st local concert you watched:
cant remember o:

16. 1st celebrity you saw in person?
Aiza Seguerra I think. she used to be our neighbor in Cubao. Im sure youve all heard of New York, Cubao right? Well, we used to live a street away from there.

17. 1st TV show you really like?
Princess Sarah, The Power Rangers, Sesame Street, and Batibot. Haha!

18.1st buk u bought:
with my own money? great expectations by charles dickens - for a little girl to buy that, youd think she was too profound for her age right? guess again - i never got to finish reading it. haha

19. 1st sport you played:
err, basketball? with my brothers? hahaha.

20. 1st sleepover:
i dont think ive ever slept at anyone's house. i was never allowed. :(

21. 1st terrible fight:
grade 4? with my celinikkigelena (celine, nikki, angge, mariel) barkada O: i remember them using "clarissa" as their codename for me (melissa joan hart's character on nick). i never realized how maarte and boastful i was until they got mad at me. eventually, the whole barkada ended up getting mad at each one for the same reasons. haha.

22. 1st inaanak (first godchild?):
angelica :) second was richard.

23. 1st debut (filipino girly 18th bday party):
that i went to? ate nina's? or ate rose's? tagal na nun O:

24. 1st bestfriend/s:
carlo. and this girl from montessorri but omg i forgot her name O:

25. 1st wedding you attended:
err, i was always ALWAYS a flower girl back when i was little. but doi, i cant remember any of those stuff anymore. lol. i want to attend a wedding now that im older. can i be anyone's bridesmaid? anyone? haha.

26. 1st person who greeted you on your lastbday:
noel? :)

27. 1st cellphone:
Nokia Ringo. Di pa uso texting nun at may maliit na antenna pa yung phone ko dati! Haha..
And then there was my classic Nokia 3210, then my 3315, then my 8250, then my 3200 (that was stolen last year), and now medyo umasenso nako, 6600 na. Hehe. I want a new phone though. One that's not bulky and big anymore.

28. 1st collection:
Hello Kitty stuff! I used to adore her. And Betty Boop. Then eventually, pati na rin si Tweety. Lol. I lost my collections of stickers and stationeries though. :( I think I gave them away.

29. 1st tym u saw a ghost?
never saw. just heard and felt. *chills* O:

30.first lab? lab? love? Chem lab? hahaha. :)

***
I hear your angel voice. It makes me feel so nice. I like to sing along. Along and forever.
I know wrong and right is gone tonight.

I hear your angel words. Inside and overheard. I'll fall in love tonight. The one time I go hide.
I know wrong and right is off tonight.

I hear your angel song. I hope I sing along.
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Filipina = maid?
The maid in the Roberts mansion (Summer Roberts...the OC) is supposedly from the Philippines.

I dont know whether to feel proud that I heard the name of my country on my favorite TV show or feel ashamed that it was associated with being a maid.

But then again...

Precious Lara Quigaman, the Miss Philippines who took home the 2005 Miss International crown, was asked the following question during the final round...

"What do you say to the people of the world who have typecasted Filipinos as nannies?"

To which she replied, "I take no offense on being typecasted as a nanny. But I do take offense that the educated people of the world have somehow denegrated the true sense and meaning of what a nanny is. Let me tell you what she is. She is someone who gives more than she takes. She is someone you trust to take care of people most precious to you -- your child, the elderly, yourself. She is the one who has made a living out of loving and caring for other people. So, to those who have typecasted us as nannies, thank you. It is a testament to the loving and caring nature of the Filipino people. And for that, I am forever proud and grateful of my roots and culture!"

But then again...

I heard that the e-mail from which I got this from was also a hoax.

Oh well. That was a very good answer though.
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Tuesday, May 23, 2006


college banter
I got the scholarship. Top 4.
Now I have even more reason to regret not going to Taft.

*prepare for some college-related ranting*

Even before I took the test, my parents were choosing between me going green or maroon. Going blue was an option too when we found out I got into the Director's List(?), but then, I never really imagined myself to be an Atenean.

Anyway, my course in La Salle would credit an Economics major aside from Accounting. But BAA in UP's a really good course too and if I pass the CPA examination, Id have a title with my name. AND if I want to, I can pursue a degree in law (did I use the term correctly?) aftewards and become a CPA-Lawyer (my Mom and Dad combined).

But now that I got the scholarship, I could have gone to either universities without having to spend a single peso and even get allowances.

Argh.
Dont get me wrong though, I dont think of myself any less for going to the "premiere state university" of our country blah blah blah. I guess Im just jealous of the fact that most of my batchmates are still "together" to some extent, while we, on the other hand, are exiled off to faraway Diliman.

Bleh.
I just really really really want my classes to start already so I wont be uh, school-sick anymore.
Haha.

***
Oh and by the way, here's a fun UP fact:

La Salle may have a green archer, and Ateneo may have a blue eagle...
but no, UP isnt exactly represented by the oblation statue or the parrot.
Ours is apparently an American Eagle since the first colleges were established during the American occupation. And maroon was chosen as their color since that's the case with most state universities in other countries.

The emcee during our orientation said that it was a common misconception for people to think of the parrot as UP's "mascot" since many have conceived the bird on the UP seal as one.

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Why the talkative and colorful bird, you ask? No, it isnt because most people think of UP students as those who bravely let out shouts and outcries. "Makibaka! Wag matakot!" Apparently, parrots were (or still are) symbols of knowledge.

Maybe this has been the case since our neighbors are eagles too, so Im betting they just kept on with the whole oblation/parrot thing. But then again, I guess UP can also stand for University of the Parrots. Isnt that just swell? :) LOL

And as if the conceit in this entry isnt enough (which is unintended),
here's another snotty line for you:
-I think therefore Im from UP-
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of hellos and hello agains
*love was meant for beauty queens*
I cant express how envious I am of my batchmates who went to Taft today. I badly wished for myself to be there, amidst fellow Lasallians, walking through the green and white halls while trying to spot familiar and not-so-familiar-but-cute faces. As friends texted me while they were trying to kill time during their long-ass breaks, I couldnt help but feel regret. A big part of me somehow felt distressed about my decision to choose a faraway university for its "prestige" and other undeniable perks, but I guess Im gonna have to learn to love UP. Thats what theyve been telling us anyway (that we'll love UP sooner or later, that is).

Too bad I wont be experiencing that "everywhere i looked, i saw zobel people" thing. And I miss my batchmates who are there already. Rarr.

Guess Im just scared of delving into the unknown, getting lost in an unfamiliar jungle, and mingling with people Ive never met before.

Oh wait, thats exactly what I want, isnt it?
Hahaha.

Cant wait for June 13! :)

***
Ive finally settled things with just a simple and casual YM conversation. Cant believe how easy it was. Nothing really happened in the first place anyway. The people around us just sort of sensationalized our friendship by bombarding us with, dare I say, petty intrigues. Heck, even my Mom got into it. Haha! They all believed something that we both almost believed. But I guess we know ourselves all too well.

And besides, he's one person I love to hate. The same goes for him. He calls me ugly, makes me feel fat, and displays less chivalry than I do. He treats me in a way that other boys wouldnt dare do to me. He may deny it, but we have an understanding that makes us want to kill each other and yet still share personal and deep stories at the end of the day. He may not know it, coz everything to him is a joke, a parody, or a surreal drama from which he runs away from, but Im still glad were "talking" again.

To you, and to everyone else, good luck and take care in college! :)

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Since I still cant sleep, I decided to update my Friendster account after ages of not doing so.
A testimonial would be very much appreciated:


Im gonna love you forever if you make me one! C'mon! I know you want to!
Please? Hahaha! :D
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Sunday, May 21, 2006


missing Mama
Would you look at that...its 11:31 PM on my clock, and I JUST WOKE UP.

Day-long trips can be really tiring. This I know from our usual Batangas-Sta.Rosa-Muntinlupa expeditions. Today, we had another one since its my Lola's death anniversary. I have always been tasked to lead the rosary whenever were at the cemetery. I thought that because Im a legal adult already, I could pass on my assignment to my younger brother this year. But because I was the only grandchild of my Mama whom she actually got to take care of (Im the eldest among all the grandchildren), I guess that responsibility shall remain solely mine permanently.

I know that I have very sucky memory, but from when I was a little girl, images of that very special woman in my life flash before me today.

I miss you, Mama.
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Saturday, May 20, 2006


wrong number
There are 8 things wrong in my life right now:

1. I did not eat breakfast, lunch, and dinner.
2. I slept from 5am to 11am.
3. Im listening to Korn. I never listen to heavy metal.
4. I refused when my brother offered me Chocnut.
5. I uttered not more than 10 sentences the whole day.
6. I scarred myself when I hit this metal thingy. It formed a line with a short dash on top.
7. My parents wanted me to go out late last night (contrary to expectation, I decided not to) but they didnt allow me to go out again today to meet my barkada. :(
8. The only thing that aroused my curiosity and held my attention the whole day was that episode of Veronica Mars and Eva Longoria being on Saturday Night Live. And a few other things someone told me.

I'd like to think that nothing's wrong, but these things indicate otherwise. Weird.

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I want Eva Longoria's hair. Or Nicole Scherzinger's.
My hair's long again. College starts in a few weeks.
Shall I dare have a new look? Lol.

I have a girl crush on both of them. And on Alicia Keys and Jessica Alba.

Oh, here's an interesting fact:
Scherzinger (PCD's lead singer) was once engaged to Nick Hexum, the lead singer of the popular alternative rock band 311. Their 2002 hit single "Amber" was written for Scherzinger.

"The bitterest tear shed over graves are for words left unsaid and deeds left undone"
- Harriet Beecher Stowe
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Friday, May 19, 2006


way overdue rush of mush
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***
Lets face it;
weve changed.
Weve all changed.
Somewhere between school ending, and school starting and here,
weve all gone in our own directions.
Hearts have been broken;
friendships diminished,
new loves started & new people came into our lives;
we no longer spend all of our time together in our circle of friends
& we no longer talk for hours about nothing at all.
Weve changed.
Some for the better & some for the worse.

***
Somehow, the past few nights Ive been enjoying as a nocturnal descendant of after-dark chatters have gotten me into the mood of savoring my last few weeks as a child. Nearly half of my batch will be diving into their own muchfeared and eagerlyanticipated college lives come Monday, and I cant help but think that this must really be it. Not only is everyone turning into full-pledged adults who are susceptible to getting into jail, or even worse, marriage, but also the familiar faces Ive grown up with are apparently children no more.

Snapshots of my classmates' wide ridiculous smiles always get me, especially when the memory that comes with that stolen image of time comes rolling in. The littlest things like Bonnie Bailey's hit that practically drugged us during batch parties, whimsical hirits and expressions like goodvibes! saUlos! and eows!, the undying noise that comes with Zobel students wherever we go, the love-hate relationships we have with amazing people we'll never forget (like Mama Ludz and Sir Flu) - they were all just part of the best days of my 18-year life. And in a way that not even I understand, my knees just wobble at the thought of actually finally saying goodbye to all that, and facing things so unknown and unfamiliar to me.

I may have just been lagging this whole time for not fully appreciating the fun of it all, but I am so glad that I witnessed and had the best of times with people who were meant to overwhelm me with their presence.

I know getting all sentimental about these things is waaaay overdue. But hey, weve got the first day of the rest of our lives heading our way, so there's still plenty of time for us to look back and conquer the world at the same time.

Whether we be squashed like bugs as Freshies or be looked up to as Zobel alumni, Im sure that the Star Batch are still gonna be the makers of the greatest story ever told. :)

***
Maybe some things were really meant to never be the same again. But maybe, if you did something about it, it wouldnt have to be that way.
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so damn good when I stop
"Maybe we like the pain. May we're wired that way, because without it, we just wouldn't feel real. What's that saying? 'Why do I keep hitting myself with a hammer? Because it feels so good when I stop.' "

-Grey's Anatomy

***
"Life moves on, whether we act as cowards or heroes. Life has no other discipline to impose, if we would but realize it, than to accept life unquestioningly. Everything we shut our eyes to, everything we run away from, everything we deny, denigrate or despise, serves to defeat us in the end. What seems nasty, painful, evil, can become a source of beauty, joy, and strength, if faced with an open mind. Every moment is a golden one for him who has the vision to recognize it as such."

-Henry Miller

***
Just when I was already shaky and cold, you thanked me and saved me again.
Guess I have my B word after all. :P
Have a safe trip! Will miss you ;)

***
Im off to watch The Da Vinci Code tomorrow with Jana and I dontknowwhoelse. Lol.
Thank God Im finally getting out of this house.
My life is so bland.
Hurray.
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Wednesday, May 17, 2006


blogging while chatting with dear bffs
Another plan of going to EK has again been nullified. When I will see you again Mr. pointy-hat-wearing blue-starred wizard, I do not know. I just wish it would be sooner before the rainy season takes its toll on your rides.

***
Danielle, Jana, and I are having that were-either-becoming-nuns-or-lesbos conversation again.

hmmm...what if? Hahaha.

Quotable quotes of the night:

Jana: sweetie, you never look for it
Danielle: youre not looking but they are
Jana: it just finds you

jana: Danielle: oh he cant handle it even if he tried <<< sweetie, they're boys

Even though we are still fighting over the same perfect guy (haha), I just dont know how my late nights would be without you two. Here's to more bubwit, tsubibo, and er boogs/bubuchacha typed exchange of thoughts and weirdness! :)

***
It feels weird to not have anything to write about anymore. Not that Im complaining coz Im completely content right now, but it just feels...new. Haha.

I just really really really so badly want June 13 to come already! I need to get my butt off my bed and move into my dorm as soon as possible and stalk Marvin Cruz or something. Waaah! Lol.

Okay, this is so pointless. Even though some things were left unsettled, I must move on to better things like trying to achieve that Jessica-Alba body (asa), or saving the dolphins from poachers everywhere.

Ohno. Dolphins = lesbian tendencies.
I did not intend that to happen. Ahahaha!

Mustshutupnow. Kthanksbye! :)

***
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Still watching the UEFA Champions League. I know nothing about football (except when Cao shares his knowledge with me), but this is history in the making, mehn. I find football way more interesting than basketball. But then again, Im an ignoramus when it comes to the sport, so I just basically watch it for the sake of watching it.

Fabregas is cute.
I only know Ronaldinho. :|

Will try to watch the NBA Playoffs at 9am too.
Guess that means no sleep for me. :P
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Back in my what-seems-like-ancient grade school years...

Some people loved me
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Some people didnt
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Some were creative
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Some went straight to the point
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Some I went gaga over
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Some simply made me go gaga.
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My friends and I used to always snail mail each other every summer. Though were all an e-mail/instant message away now, still nothing beats the old handwritten letters.

Here's to the crazy ones, the misfits, the poets, the trouble-makers, the starry-eyed, the nerds, and all the loves of my past. :)
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Tuesday, May 16, 2006


a taste of Emo
Thanks Cao for the song ;)
Oh, and I forgot to put in my e-mail that Im playing The Godfather on PS2. Diba you loved the movies? Haha.

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Gone So Young
by Amber Pacific

I never dreamt it'd be this way
I lost any chance for me to say
To say that I miss you, say that I love you
Will someone please tell me I'm okay

I wasn't prepared for what's to come
A life made of memories gone so young
And now I'm regretting all I've done
But in your heart you know that I'm with you all along

Wherever you go, I will be waiting
Whenever you call, I will be there
Whatever it takes, I'll make your darkest days so bright
I'm in your heart tonight

I never thought that this could go
And take me away from all I know
And leave me to think I'm on my own
But your love will take me, you were the one...

...Who sat through nights
You held me tight
And made sure I'm okay
And I thank you for the love you gave to me

Wherever you go, I will be waiting
Whenever you call, I will be there
Whatever it takes, I'll make your darkest days so bright
I'm in your heart tonight...

Tonight...

Wherever you go, I will be waiting
Whenever you call, I will be there
Whatever it takes, I'll make your darkest days so bright
Wherever you go, I will be waiting
Whenever you call, I will be there
Whatever it takes, I'll make your darkest days so bright
And if I should fall, I know you're waiting
And if I should call, I know you're there
If ever you cry just know
I'm in your heart tonight...
I'm in your heart tonight.

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Monday, May 15, 2006


an understatement
*My body clock's going haywire again. I slept from 7 to 12midnight last night, was up and online until 5am, was back in bed and stayed in it until 12noon. Hurray for nocturnal creatures!
*Attended Mass earlier and then ate at The Pizza Company in Festi for dinner. I saw Robby and Poch's families there too.
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"God could not be everywhere and therefore he made mothers."

We rarely "celebrate" (read: to observe (a day or event) with ceremonies of respect, festivity, or rejoicing) special occasions in our family. Its something that weve just gotten used to ever since. Sometimes I wish it were different - like maybe we could aplify the little things like giving cake and flowers and the usual stuff other people give on a special day such as this. But despite the absence of the cheeziness/sweetness, I think that the mere fact that were all still together and still share laughs together make it more than anyone could ever ask for. And I sure am lucky to have what I have now.

My mom's life is a success story in itself. She grew up in Batangas in a family of 8 (I think) who unfortunately lost their wealth as they grew up. Being the eldest, she knew she had to work extra harder to make dreams come true - not only hers, but of her siblings as well. Id always laugh at her nung-dalaga-pa-ako kwentos whenever she narrates how her old suitors would line up outside of their house every night waiting for her to choose from one of them. But up until she reached college, she never got into a relationship, not because she didnt want to, but because she had her priorities straightened out. And during that time, her studies and her family were on top of her list. It was a good thing she graduated valedictorian and got a scholarship right after high school since my grandparents couldnt afford to pay for college here in Manila. Her persevearance and desire to make things better for her and her family drove her to excel in her studies and, at the same time, toil as a working student. It was never easy, she said, but I just knew I had to do it.

From then on, she's remained as the breadwinner of her family. Although her plans for her siblings didnt go exactly as planned, she still continues to offer help and guidance up to this day - still acting like the big Ate that she is. She has made great sacrifices for the people she loves and has given us more than we can ever imagine possible. The simple probinsyana in her always thought it to be unthinkable to attain such accomplishments, but despite all the difficulties she went through, she never settled for mediocrity. She was bold and gentle, driven and vulnerable, ambitious and content. Those thoughts of my mother have clung to me all my life, and I have her to thank for the zeal I have in me now. That, and everything my family is and will be, we owe it all to her.

She may never get to read this, but I hope she knows she's my hero. :)
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Sunday, May 14, 2006


this is random. i swear.
HER- If you see me walking in the road with him it's not becuase i like his company, its because you're not brave enough to walk beside me. If you hear me talking about him all the time its not because he pleases me, its because you're too deaf to hear my heart beat. If you feel me falling for someone new its not because i love him, its because you're not there to catch me. If you feel lost, i too am nowhere, i too dont know where the road is going. Are we gonna cross each others paths or just completely turn around? Will we just let go of what we had or go to where love is bound? Don't let me walk with him, it's you I want to walk with. Don't let me talk to him, its you i want to talk with. And dont let me fall for him, its YOU i want to fall in love with.

HIM- When you thought i wasnt brave enough to walk beside you, i was behind you evey step of the way, still filled with awe because of your beauty that stands before me. When i thought i was to deaf to hear your heart beat, I didnt want to assume anything since i was afraid to risk our friendship. When you thought i wasn't there to catch you, it was because you never reached the bottom, you've already grabbed a branch. If you feel like you are nowhere, I too am lost, i too dont kow where the road is going. Are we just gonna turn around or cross each others path? Will we just let go of what we had or go to a place where love is bound? Dont let me walk alone, its you i want to walk with. Dont let me talk to her its you i want to talk with. Dont let me fall for her, its YOU i want to fall in love with.

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"You know how when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales, that fantasy of what your life would be, white dress, prince charming who would carry you away to a castle on a hill. You would lie in bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith. Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, Prince Charming, they were so close you could taste them, but eventually you grow up, one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is its hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely cause almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope, of faith, that one day they will open their eyes and it will come true."- Grey's Anatomy


was looking for a survey to answer, but found this instead.
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Saturday, May 13, 2006


on the 12th of May
My day started at around 8 am when my Mom woke me up. I wasnt surprised to see it pouring outside, but this time, I wasnt too happy about it.

After packing my things for Bea's debut later that night, I prepared my umbrella for some serious rain-protection. I took a jeep from our village to Festi to meet up with Chrissie by the "underground walkway" which leads to the other side of uh, this other mall near the Alabang market. We then had to walk to Metropolis with the rain starting to pour harder. After that, we boarded this bus all the way to the Magallanes MRT station. The traffic was heavy that morning, but we didnt mind. It was good to be under the airconditioned bus's leak-free roof and at least we got to be the only ones making noise inside it ( mga taga-Zobel nga naman, haha).

Our poor feet were only wearing flip flops, so as soon as we got off the bus, they got wet again. :/We walked to the MRT station and got tickets to Quezon Avenue. It was my first time to ride the MRT and I have to say that I was surprised by how neat it is. And its a good thing they decided to separate the ladies and children from the old, smelly, green-eyed men. Lol.

After getting off at Quezon Avenue, we just had to ride a jeepney that went straight to the UP campus. Yay! We arrived in the Economics building just in time for the registration. We saw Tim as we were lining up to get inside and he was spotted by this modelling agent and gave him his card. Eow! haha

The Orientation wasnt that bad. Sobrang kulit nung hosts, but I still enjoyed their antics anyway. They introduced all the offices the freshmen needed to take note of and we were all welcomed as the Iskolars ng Bayan. Im gonna have to get used to being called an Iska from now on.

I still dont know what "Pasok sa banga!" means. "Yes!" ba yun talaga? Haha.

The intermission numbers were entertaining too. We were the only batch who got to watch the UP Street Dance Club (the Skechers dance compe champs). Were not advised to join orgs on our first year, but if ever do join anything, it would have to involve dancing. But like Tim said, the Ice Cream org sounds promising too. :P~

After the open forum, the UP Pep Squad came in to teach us the cheers. It was weird to have to chant them since Ive been so used to the Animos and HailHailHails, but as soon as the drums started beating, I instantly felt the UP spirit. Tim, Fio, Chrissie and I all decided to leave early to eat at the SC (note: Shopping Center) but the UP Go go go, UP fight fight fight, UP go, UP fight, UP win the fight! cheer was stuck in my head the whole time. O: Haha!

Chri and I then said goodbye to them and went to ride a jeep again to the MRT station. This time, we bought tickets to Ayala Avenue since its easier to catch a bus to Alabang there. After getting on the bus headed for Metropolis, we got stuck in heavy traffic. O: My parents were already waiting for me in ATC since they had my things for Bea's debut, so I just prayed for the traffic to move a little faster so as to not cause any more hassle.

After getting off in Alabang, the rain started to pour really hard. Kahit na may payong kami, basang basa pa rin kami pagkasakay namin ng jeep. O: After getting off at ATC, I said goodbye to Chrissie since she had to take a trike to their house there. It was fun to have had an adventure like that with her, and Im sure weve got more to come. :)

It was embarassing though to walk through ATC with wet pants. My pants turned a darker blue since it got drenched in the rain. Sortof. :\ I then finally met up with my parents near Starbucks and saw Justin waiting there. After a few minutes, Raffy and Anjo arrived and before I knew it, we were on our way to Makati.

We were already late but the heavy traffic made us even more late. Add to that the fact that none of us had a map to Bea's venue with us, so we got lost and went around Makati without knowing where to go exactly. We kept on asking directions from guards and traffic enforcers, but some didnt even help one bit. After finally finding Forbes Park (its For-bes according to the guards, lol), we finally finally finally arrived at the Tesoro's residence just in time for the yummy food. :D

Bea's debut was fun. She looked so pretty in her glamorized Yuna costume. I even saw Marc Anthony Fernandez and Rustom Padilla? Lol. Our dance came in last and even though the routine seemed really short and the lights were blinding us, we all still had fun.

Happy Birthday Bea!
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I rode with Nomer and Justin and convoyed till we reached Alabang. My Dad picked me up at Mt. McDo and surprisingly, we got to talk while we were in the car. Even though I knew he was tired already from all the things he did that day (he has his oath-taking in the Supreme Court that morning with other lawyers which was the reason why I had to commute going to UP), he was still eager to pick me up himself last night. :) And my Mom texted me the whole day too - asking how I was, if I had already eaten, etc etc. Nothing beats the good ol' loving-mother-nagging. Haha! :)

Got home at exactly 12midnight and...that was pretty much how my 12th of May went. :) Whew!

*Announcement to my dear barkada:
Market! Market! tayo next week! Shoooppping! :)
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weird and funny rainy day
Almost everyone was talking to me about it the whole night, so I cant not reflect on it, can I?

Its weird how you can be best friends for a time, and not even say hi to one another when everyone else is expecting you to. There is always that fine line between being good friends, and seeming like youre not even friends anymore. Once you cross that line, it'll be hard to bounce back.

I dont even know whats going on - maybe the beer or the rain exaggerated the whole thing or maybe he was just being his old weird self again, I dunno. Inconvenience comes in when you know how one day you are suprised by things going back to how they were before, then the next, it would appear as if nothing happened at all. Its just so weird that its almost funny.

I laughed at all the things everyone else was saying, but even found the things he was not saying more comical. I doubt if he even has things to say, but if only he'd let me know why he always acts the way he does, then it would be so much easier for me to understand. I think Im done trampling on my ego by trying to do something about it. Ive done what I thought I had to do even though it was caused by an uncalled for impulse.

A friendship like that is too valued to go to waste.
To me it is, at the least.
I just really miss it, thats all.

I am not being overly-dramatic. Just contemplative.
This may have again been compelled by the drizzle and the fact that its already 1am.
Ill most probably regret this again but what the heck, I just had to write something.

Whattaday.

*A more sensible entry on today's events to follow. :)
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Thursday, May 11, 2006


why arent you?
For my non-existent stalkers:
My schedule in UP for the first sem...

MTh
8:30-9:45 Math 17
10:00-11:30 Soc Sci 2
1:00-2:30 Nat Sci 2

TF
8:30-9:45 Math 17
10:00-11:30 Philo 1
11:00-2:30 Eng1

W
9:00-11:00 PE2 CHL

Yun lang. Ahaha! :) I love my schedule. Just the way I wanted it. Yung PE ko pa Cheerleading - I just have to watch UAAP games and cheer. Lol. Hurray!

My enrollment this morning went smoothly. After the 2-hour briefing, we got the whole enrollment procedure done in an hour or so. Way more efficient than I expected the whole thing to be. I was with Chrissie and Fio so I felt at ease the whole time. Even saw Tim at Palma Hall (sorry we had to leave! O:) We ate lunch at the Shopping Center and went around the campus wasting Fio's precious gas. Haha. We then met up with Chrissie's mom, Sab, and Pia and ate lunch (again) at Pizza Hut. One could just imagine how our bulging stomachs showed as we took bites off the pizza. Tita insisted on making me eat 3 slices (thin crust), so I was obliged to agree. So much for trying to be healthy. Lol.

Then Pia and I were dropped off in Town. It was nice to have bonded with my future fellow BAA-er. She's her batch's level representative in the Student Council of CBA. Nagkwento sya (didnt want to type "she made kwento..." LOL) tungkol sa buhay sa UP - kinabahan tuloy ako. O: Ngayon lang nagsink-in sa utak ko yung course na pinasukan ko. Were only 103 in our batch - 60 are taking BAA and the other 43 are taking BA. The dean said that 2/3 of the graduating batch graduate with honors. Huwaw.

Anyway, before I scare myself any further, can I just say how God loves me so much for granting my wish?! RAAAAIIINN! Haha. I practically dedicated a third of my prayer-before-bedtime to pleading for droplets from the heavens.

Rain <3>
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Wednesday, May 10, 2006


TheFatGirlBlabbing
From: TheFatManWalking.com
Walking Across America to lose weight and regain my life!

Why Im walking...
My Name is Steve Vaught, (born Stephen James Liller in Youngstown, Ohio). I am a 39 year old, happily married father of two great kids and I have a pretty good life here in Southern California. You would think that I would be happy because of these things, but I am not. I am not happy because I am fat and being fat makes every day unhappy.

I am going to walk across the United states from San Diego to NYC to lose weight and regain my life

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Good job Mr Steve!
Who wants to join TheUnfitFilipinoTeenagersDyingInHeat.com?
Boooo. Lol.

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I think Im gaining a good amount of anxiety along with every pound I put on.

I think that my summer days would have been much more productive if the sun wasnt always blazing like how my mother is when she has hypertension.

I think I need a car. No, I KNOW so. *prays*

I think that I should have watched The Sentinel (Evaaaa and Keiferrr!) instead of Aquamarine last night. I didnt even got to finish the whole movie. Ngarr.

And some pepper spray and taser would help too, with me staying in Katipunan and all in the near future. Does anyone know where I can buy one? Anyone?

I think that I have reached the level of geniosity (thats probably not even a word) because I have finally put that USB card reader to use. No more useless MMS sending to my e-mail! Hurrah.

I think that carnations are lovely.

I think that Don Romantiko (?) subdues all the other love songs in the world - especially when Gerald dances it inside Big Brother's house. LOL.

I think that having to line up the whole day tomorrow for my enrollment in UP Diliman is going to kill me. Thank God Ill be with Chrissie and will probably meet up with Tim. Ha! People I know! :)

I think that having a pet is an essential part of a child's life. So why cant Nino and I still have a dog? :( Boohoo!

I think that if I dont find a ride to Bea's debut after my orientation on Friday which will end at 5pm, I will have to take on the nearly-deadly task of commuting. You think I should hitchhike? Bring a flawless wooden leg maybe?

I think that I should shut up now and go on with my apple-eating. Later! :)
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Monday, May 08, 2006


for ever and a day
*What I Learned From Him

He was the friend I have always had, but never had the chance to talk to. He was the person I have always chanced upon, but never got to share moments with. He was the guy I have always seen, but never really got to understand. He was the person who came to me for encouragement, but little did I know, that it was from him that I would find inspiration.

*Note: I still cant remember who he is though. I found it in my files and was stumped by who I could have possible considered to be my inspiration for one of my ADMU essay drafts. Oh well. Those few lines sound good to me though.

Here's preview of the actual essay I submitted:

*"Heart-Shaped Biscuit"

If life were a grand play, then I must have met the greatest performer of my time. He has put on countless performances in front of enthusiastic crowds, impressed different personalities with his wit, and showed off his talents to various audiences. Despite the unbelievable recognition and astonishing feats throughout his lifetime, he has kept his feet firmly planted on the ground. By the world's standards, his works and deeds may not be worthy of a Nobel Prize. But in my eyes, he is the one person who managed to win my heart. His name is Phillip, and by the way, he is only 8 years old. . . .

Ive posted this more than once already, but I never grow tired of it.
>>Click Here<< to read the rest. :)

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*Love Is What Really Matters

What really matters now is love. Now I don't mean mush, I don't mean sentimentality. I mean that condition in the human spirit so profound that it allows us to rise. Strength, love, courage, love, kindness, love. That is really what matters. There has always been evil, and there will always be evil, but there has always been good, and there is good now. - Maya Angelou

"I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel."
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Sunday, May 07, 2006


a very tiring day (Sunday)
*Go on and stalk me like you do. I know you do.*

I am so exhausted not only from the heat but from all the things I did today. From driving to pigging out to crying like a baby - I think Ive had enough for one day.

*Woke up at 6am after having had only 3 hours of sleep.
*Went to Church and only realized then that it was our parish's feast day today. St. Peregrine Parish. Fiesta, la la la.

*Went to Sta. Rosa again.
And because the house was still under construction, the big rocks and the big patches of grass acted as my sanctuaries for a few hours or so.

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These are shots taken of the park right in front of the house, and one of the few reasons why I so want to stay there already.

*Drove my brothers to the court to watch them play basketball.
Yay! I had my hand on the wheels again after decades of not being able to do so.

*Went to Tagaytay to have lunch at Dencio's. A 20-minute drive from our house to the Welcome to Tagaytay sign. Not bad.
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*Went back to La Residencia to chat with neighbors.

*Went to my Tita's other house back here in Muntinlupa where I met with all my other cousins.

*We then all went back to our house (here), to have dinner.
And since our helper is out, I had to be the all-around nanny, cook-helper, yaya, chimay, etc.
They were all impressed by my skills which I have so fervently been practising the whole summer, and all gave a final verdict: I am sorta-semi-eligible to be a housewife. Hahaha.

And to add to all the stress, a total of 10 kids were inside my room. Believe me, I counted. To think my room isnt even big enough for me. Guess they were all drawn by the magic of the my krypton-like PC.

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Sometimes Things Are Never The Same
Ive been trying to sleep for the past 4 hours, and all that Ive gotten is a good brrr-ing and shivering because of the aircon that was left on High Cool. Sometimes I wish I had instant sleeping pills to knock me out instantly.

I just remembered that I had cappuccino after dinner. Nincompoop.

Sorry Da if I wasnt able to go online earlier! :( T-us ako eh. O:

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Live your life from your heart. Share from your heart. And your story will touch and heal people's souls. -Melody Beattie
I saw Carlo today when I went out for a short walk. His face hasnt changed that much. I always imagined him to be taller too, but it seems like Im not the only one who's been deprived of growth hormones. I remember always teasing him for being as short as me back in our pre-school years. After doing my homework every afternoon, Id scurry off to our street and meet up with my playmates - Carlo being one of them. Throughout our friendship, he was able to teach me a lot of things. He taught me how to ride a bike, make bubbles out of gumamela flowers, play tag, buy candy from the kanto, and those other little things that complemented my childhood days filled with fun and carelessness.

But time had to catch up with us. And so did circumstance.

Years ago, his father was shot because of a fateful incident. A life was lost just because of a fight over an insignificant parking space. Memories of watching the news on tv still haunt me till today. Hearing my parents ramble on about how fate can really play its tricks on you still echoes in my ears. Carlo's family was fairly well-off but when they lost their father, things drastically changed.

I have faint memory of how we were before that all happened, but our friendship rolled to a halt shortly after. I felt helpless as a little girl who didnt know how to deal with death and loss at that time. I thought those life-changing mishaps only happened to other people and not to people I actually knew. But I learned that that was not always the case. Years after their first loss, Carlo's family had to go through another test - his Mom had a stroke and was almost paralyzed.

Still not knowing how to deal with the gravity of what was going on, I felt as if things around me were impossible to control. I was lacking in and deprived of strength to go to my best friend and help him through his most difficult days. I was a little girl eager to help but was too young to understand.

I then went on with my juvenile life. As I grew older, my days of playing outside the house ceased to exist. I no longer went out every afternoon to stroll along with my bike or play patintero. I wasnt able to play with my friends anymore because I was too busy doing things inside the house. And I no longer saw Carlo.

That was until today, when I saw him again. We walked past each other without saying a word. I gave off a half-smile and so did he. I know better than to think he's still the same old little boy who used to always act as my escort. And we were best friends no more.

We may never be able to rekindle the friendship we once had, but Im glad I have memories of him to live by. And although I regret still having loose ends with him, I am thankful for all that he has taught me about life and friendship.
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Saturday, May 06, 2006


38 Things About Girls
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1. A girl can't find anything to hate about the guy she loves (which is why it is so hard for her to 'get over him' after the relationship's over.)
- that 'love is blind' thing is phooey.

2. If a girl loves a guy, he will always be on her mind every minute of the day, even though she flirts with other guys.
- isnt this the same for guys?

3. When the guy she likes smiles and stares deep into her eyes, she will melt.
- a simple smile can go a long way. :)

4. A girl likes to hear compliments, but usually is not sure how to react to them.
- "Ngeeeh! Hihihi, whatever! Tama na ang bola! Mamaya na kita babayaran! Really? Di nga?" and the list goes on. Haha.

5. When a particular guy flirts with a girl very often, a girl would start thinking the guy likes her. So if you treat a girl just as a friend, go easy on the smiles and stare ok?
- the flirty guys should take note of this.

6. If you don't like a girl who likes you, break it to her gently.

7. Girls enjoy talking about what they feel. Music, poetry, drawings and writing are ways of expressing themselves (which explains why most girls like writing journals).
- obviously so. eating comes second, and fixing stuff/OC-ness comes third.

8. Never tell a girl that she is useless in any way.

9. When the guy she likes calls her for the first time, the girl may act uninterested during the call. But as soon as the phone is back on the hook, she will whoop with joy and immediately start telephoning her friends to spread the news.
- hey, guys do this too dont they? minsan nahahalata nga eh. Lol.

10. A smile means a lot to a girl. :)

11. If you like a girl, try making friends with her first. Let her get to know you.
- i couldnt have emphasized on this more.

12. Don't try to guess a girl's feelings. Ask her.
- stop going crazy and feeling all paranoid. just go ahead and ask her straight up.

13. Hearing the words "I love you" is a great reassurance to a girl that she is beautiful.

14. After a girl falls in love with a guy, she'll wonder why she never noticed him before.

15. If you need tips on how to flirt with a girl, read romance stories.
- and watch the more sensible and plausible romantic comedies. lol.

16. When class pictures come out, a girl would first check who is standing next to her crush before actually looking at herself.

17. A girl's ex-crush will always be in her memory, but the guy she loves now stays in her heart.

18. Girls love having fun!

19. A simple 'Hi' can brighten a girl's day.

20. A girl's best friends usually know best what she is feeling and going through.
- you got that right. ;)

21. Girls hate it when a guy pays attention to them just to get close to their 'prettier' friend.
- dont even think about it. if you need help, at least be sincere with how you approach a girl. users are to be hated. offer genuine friendship.

22. Don't tell a girl you love her if you don't. It will only break her heart.
- dont be jerks.

23. We will never be too old for sleepovers.

24. Gossip isnt a sin; its an art.

25. We aren`t ashamed to cry.

26. We must go to the bathroom in groups.
- just because. :)

27. We have this thing called feelings; don`t hurt them.

28. There`s no point in having an ex if you can`t be a bitch to him.

29. Hoes over bros. no questions asked.

30. We don`t wake up looking pretty. It takes time and effort.
- haha. true, true.

31. Sometimes is just never quite enough.

32. We need girls nights; often!

33. We hold grudges and we never forget the things you say to us that hurt.
- depends on the gravity of what happened.

34. It doesn`t matter who dumped who or why. whenever we see an ex with another girl, it always bothers us.. not because were not over you, but because we know we used to be that girl.
- err, yeah.

35. Makeup can hide so many things, like puffy eyes from crying to huge scars from a broken heart.
- concealer bois. haha.

36. No guy wants to marry a whore. well, no girl wants to marry a manwhore either.

37. Never ever ask a girl what she weighs ; or imply anything about her weight being too much or too little. just don`t do it.
- except with her consent of course. right Fuents? lol

38. Our eyes are located in our heads. not our chest or butt. when you`re not looking in our eyes, we know.
-uh huh. lalo na yung mga pasimple pa..tsk tsk.
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Friday, May 05, 2006


screw you
I learned tonight that when something is clouded by weirdness and is struggling to be erased from your life, let it be. Its probably not worth it. It wont be your loss either.

And when something new comes knocking at your door, take a peek. Youll never know when a surprise is waiting for you.

Besides, life is full of risks worth taking. And those you took will be worth remembering.

Thatsallthankyou. Bow. :)

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